Hi I'm Grubba, I do things.

This is how I've always introduced myself to others for the past 5 fucking years. I still don't know if it's effective, or meaningful, or if it just makes me another drop in the pool.

I only open this game when i have really shitty days and just wish I was happy again. I don't know what I'm doing differently 5 years after I opened this game the first time, but it's something and I don't know what.

It's so frustrating to simultaneously be so confident that I frequently don't trust others, AND so insecure that I can't trust my own decisions. God I wish anything made sense, anything at all.

I don't really know why I felt the need to write all this here, maybe someone clicks on my profile and magically knows how to fix me, or maybe I come back here myself and think "god i was a sad retard".

whoever you are, just do better than I did alright?