I never knew Josh, although I may of played with him in passing during my first few weeks of EM. I just want to say that I can't even begin to imagine spending 8 years on this site, making bonds and connections to people that go beyond the length of a real life friendship. Josh's passing has made me realise that on this site people have an influence over each other, I feel ashamed for some of the rantings I've said, and I feel slightly better when he says there is still hope for those who haven't gone into the darkness.

Josh, I'm sorry things turned out like this for you and I'm sorry I never knew you. Rest in peace.

Spent a while trying to think of what to say but I can't find the words.

I guess I'll just say that I thought you were like the older brother I never had - I looked up to you in a whole lot of ways. Haven't talked to you since that MSN groupchat aeons ago, wish I stayed in touch.

I didn't know you as a person as well as I'd wanted to, but I know you were there for people when it mattered - myself included. Too bad you didn't let they do the same. I wasn't at the best time in my life when I initially got to know you, but whenever I had a bad day you did a stellar job of cheering me up.

A lot of people cared about you and it's unreal to see you go. I'll miss you man.

Josh, I'm not really sure what to say, but you didn't deserve a lot of the hatred that was given to you. I didn't know you incredibly personally, but I have spoken to you many times throughout the years and you always appeared to have a good heart, in spite of everything. You didn't deserve the pain that you felt and you didn't deserve the things that you have gone through. I've been in a state of shock since I found out, and I will miss you. I hope that you're at peace now. It's really obvious from this thread that you've had a positive impact on a lot of people and that you helped a lot of people in their lives, and I wish you knew how meaningful you were.

You know, I've tried typing something up 3 times now, and it just didn't feel right.

The truth is, we both have done some pretty awful things to each other, which led to us being at odds for the better part of EM's history. To my knowledge, we've, since then, buried the hatchet. Once that was all said and done, we had some fun times playing SITD, and I'll never forget it.

Despite all the bad things people have to say, you've done a lot of good for people and that is what matters. You've clearly had a positive impact on the lives of many (as seen in this thread), and I wish you knew the extent of it.

Rest easy dude.

aw why'd u delete that lol. god bless him dudes

I wish I would've had a chance to get to know you better as my experiences with you were not the best. I wasn't sure what to write since I didn't know you personally but have felt gutted by this since I found out. From what I've heard from other people and have read here, you seemed like a loyal person and had a big heart and I hope you've found peace now.

one of the funniest guys i've ever met. rest peacefully, buddy.

Almost 8 years of knowing you man. Keep the fun going with Docfox until it's my time.

"the world is gonna be ok, but even if it isn't it doesn't matter, it'll be you, me, and a bunny farm against everything." i miss you josh

Josh,

I don't know you. Your story was absolutely heart-wrenching, and it is impossible for me to begin to contemplate what you had to go through. We've all experienced our fair share of suffering and misery, but yours was on a level that would shatter anyone's life... I'm just sorry that it ended in this way.

Rest in peace, I'm so sorry.

-Evil

i'm sorry josh, even though i know i couldnt stop this, i still feel like i shouldve done more. i knew you were depressed, even with the meds in place. i knew this was on your mind. i did my absolute best to keep you here but i guess there was nothing i could do. i still remember the nights you'd lose sleep just to make sure i felt better even if it was over the dumbest, most worthless problems that wouldn't mean anything the next day. the worst part about it all is that im sure only you can get me through this. you've left a mark on so many peoples lives and you really are the best person i ever knew. - Roshiez

I don't think it's healthy to adopt an "I should've seen it coming" perspective, guys. For all we know, he didn't plan it very far in advance.

=(

It may have meant something else. He had other plans that would've kept him off the site that he likely was talking about. Please don't fret too much over it

Please come back already. I miss you.

jesus christ. he told me he was quitting/leaving after getting unbanned too and i never imagined it would mean this

he told me he had some plans and wouldn't actually be coming back after getting unbanned, with those little teary-eyed things attached. and he was overly sentimental in general for what i remember of him. jesus christ dudes

welp

not gonna lie, i didnt like you at all, but no one deserves this. i hope you rest in peace.

god bless him

i knew that was u abc

"But anyway, how is it going Sirius? I can't wait till we can troll the forums together, good times."

man i have a bunch of funny messages from him from there recently but you lot would probably get all dumb about them. i probs should have seen this coming too

I'm abc.

I am sorry for those times I trolled you Josh/Gary, you were a cool guy imo. RIP

I am not going to lie when I say I really disliked you for what had happened half a year ago (but to be very honest, I am still in the shadows of whether it was truly you), but ever since I witnessed the great things you did for others I have had a tremendously newfound respect for you. I'm truly sorry to hear what has happened - nobody deserves the kind of pain you went through, and I hope you have found peace.

Josh, wish I had a chance to talk to you this weekend. Hope you have found your peace.