The note doesnt work on mobile apparently. He seemed like a good person D:

Josh you were a massive part of my life for 4 years. I'm really sorry all the crap you had to deal with, no one should ever have to deal with that. Life being complicated is probably why we bonded so much. Thanks for being that person I could have the conversations with, that I couldn't have with anyone else. I'm sorry for ruining other things. As for you being a "thoughtless prick" that couldn't be farther from the truth you were one of the thoughtful kindest people I have ever had the pleasure of talking to. I'm glad your pain is gone and that you're at peace. <3

I love you. Good night

he was awesome dudes.

Some of the best fun I've had on this site involved garyoak. A genuinely great guy to have a good time with on java mafia/ other web things. We didn't really talk about anything deeper than diplomacy strats or mafia shenanigans too much, but I can honestly say that the admiration I had for him due to his knowledge about all sorts of fantastic and impact on all sorts of fantastic people was quite large. Thanks for helping to make all those nights I spent sitting at home with nowhere to go so much more enjoyable. RIP one of the old greats.

Wow, im sorry man, hope its better wherever you're at now

Josh, I don't think we talked more than five times (unless you count this), but I still feel as though I've experienced you to an extent through your presence on this site. I have never truly known what it is to be your friend, and a big part of me always envied those who did...

The truth is I admire you. You were brilliant in the best way, effortlessly charming, but genuinely warm. Even through the indirect, adversarial contact I had with you, this was clear to me.

You are a remarkable person who could do remarkable things, and we've all lost you forever, and I can't stand the thought of that. Goodbye Josh, and while I'm glad you're now at peace, that peace came at a high price.

I'm actually very saddened by this. Josh, thank you for saving my life a few months ago...I just wish I could have saved yours. This planet lost another earthly angel. Rest in Peace man. Fly high in the sky <3


This stuff is pretty effed up. :(

i wish that i'd gotten to talk to you more last week and it's pretty weird thinking that the last conversation i ever had with you was about constipation and your meds not being tumblr enough

we talked on and off for just over 3 years (i still remember our first encounter & lying to my now ex-boyfriend about why i couldn't meet up with him at the time i'd said when really i just wanted to talk to you instead) but i wish you hadn't been so god damn mysterious and actually messaged me back some time over the last couple of months and i hate knowing that now that's never gonna happen. you were always so lovely to me and knew exactly how to put me back on my feet and for somebody so misunderstood you really understood how to make people smile

i know you hadn't been sleeping because the wellbutrin had kept you awake but i'm glad that you can finally rest now.

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u never hurt me =) farewell nred

it's more sad to me that you had to live life that long with such contemplations than what happened, but i do hope you found peace in what you did if nothing else. i applaud your message about getting help and wish you had been able to do the same.

For the most part, my involvement with Gary had stemmed from negativity and hostility between he and other individuals. Though, the one period of time we had truly engaged each other of our own accord, I thought him to be a very pleasant and relaxed person. Reading the letter provided can only offer a tiny glimmer of light on the reality of his situation, though I'm sure it was brutal. I'm sorry for anything that I might have said that would have impacted him negatively. These apologies do not yield much in terms of relativity, I'm not able to offer much more. However, I will say one thing, and that is that Katie has always done nothing but sing your praises over the years, and she is very dear to me. I believe those words that Katie has expressed are very similar to those many would have expressed about him. I honestly do wish that things could have been different. May Gary find rest, and furthermore, may everyone heed the concluding words of Gary's letter with utmost regard and perspective, as he was not alone in feeling low - even on the internet. Rest in peace.

Noone should have to go through what he went through and it's a shame he felt this was his only option. one thing to remember is what he said himself, if you are struggling please seek help and talk to people. God bless him

I know we kinda talked, but still condolences to you, your family, friends, and anyone close to you. RIP.

I thought about this during my drive home and I think it's not dishonestly sentimental to acknowledge the strength Josh must have possessed in order to positively impact virtual strangers - even in ultimately trivial ways - despite all the suffering he underwent. It's been a couple of years since I was in regular contact with him but my memory is that he was brilliant and beguiling; he boasted the sort of larger-than-life personality that a lot of people here want so desperately to effect. Well cya.

rest in peace

josh we never spoke for more than about 10 minutes but you have certainly built up something of a legacy for yourself on this site; that in and of itself is pretty amazing. but despite anything that may have gone on during your time here, your life was precious and it is so incredibly sad that this happened to you. i can only hope that you'll be able to find peace now. rest soundly dude, you will be remembered

eris,
i didn't know you very well but in the brief time that i did know you i saw you mature a lot. when we first interacted i was left with a really bad impression of you but many months later i saw that you'd grown from then and really put in an effort to educate yourself on a lot of things and i'm proud of you for that.

i know how difficult it is to be in those moments where decisions like these are made and i hope that those moments weren't filled with unbearable agony or pain for you.

i hope that you're okay, wherever you are.

Josh, I knew you from epicmafia for 5 years and you were always the smartest, funniest, and most charismatic guy around. Even though we never really talked directly outside of the forums, Sachy always spoke the best of you and it was easy to see what a good guy you were. I'm sorry for what you had to go through, you didn't deserve any of it. My thoughts and prayers go out to his family and his friends, both offline and online.

Rest in peace. God knows you deserve it.

Wow. I don't know. I'm so sorry, man.

I just remember that I played with you several games, and it was long time ago. I didn't know you personally, I'm not attached to people right here even if there are many good people. But it doesn't matter, I'm really sorry for what you lived, I can't feel what you felt but I respect you.

This is really weird to know we've lost someone who played EpicMafia, just like me, just like us.

I hope you don't suffer anymore and you're in peace.

What...no..

. I talked to him on Wednesday and he didn't seem all too stable but I never thought too horribly of him, I always thought that he was just hurt and misunderstood for the most part, and Josh always tried to be a friend to me regardless. Bygones be bygones as to whatever he did to the website, he was still a human being with emotions and I really wish something could've been done to prevent this, but all I can do is hope that Josh is in a better place and at peace.

josh, you were an intimidatingly intelligent dude and i'm not about to devalue your experiences and struggles by trying to relate to you on some anecdotal level through this cesspit of a website. i can say, however, and without a doubt, that your presence had a lasting impact on many of us and that won't easily be forgotten. i hope that both you're in a better place now and that your untimely departure serves as a lasting reminder to everyone that we're really all we've got. nobody deserves to endure what you endured. peace be upon you.

Tragic. I'm not sure if I knew him because of how long I've been outside the loop, but nobody deserves sadness like that. Always be kind to those around you, you never know what will make the difference.

Rest in peace josh~~~~ =C