I will badly armchair psychologist analyze you and attempt to generalize your personality in a simple way. These are for fun, and not actually serious evaluations of your own personality though I will attempt to be truthful - I will also try to counteract any rudeness with a kind comment unless you want me to be as rude as possible.
You're a nice person who enjoys spreading positivity to others. However, you need others to be kind to you in exchange in order for you to keep your good attitude. You practically thrive on the reaffirmation from others that you have likeable qualities, and it leads you to do certain things and post other things that you wouldn't normally post while in a confident mindset. I think that you degrade yourself by refusing to look at the fact that you are a likeable person without seeking that fact from other people.
You are likely very good at socializing IRL - I also have a feeling that you are somebody who is known for gossip and other inside stories around your local circle of friends. You like to be in control and you like to have power but you can't handle the flip side of negative repercussions or insults so it puts you in this weird, neutral position where you simply coast by in life instead of taking charge.
You take pride in having unorthodox principles or beliefs among the epicmafia community and kind of think of yourself as a special snowflake personality wise.
I don't think you are obnoxious, but I definitely get the impression that you are self aware that you are different from others and you derive personal satisfaction from that fact.
While you appreciate your friends and the community greatly, I don't think you value them very much. In other words, I always felt like you would be willing to betray a friendship, sell someone out or leak a secret very easily in order to move up in authority or respect. You kind of see it as a game of sorts, in your own twisted way - the end goal is to get at a very high position of authority and respect.
You idly observe the community as opposed to getting involved with it, unless it suits your own motivations. You have a good grasp on how it functions and you understand the people you are moderating/playing with pretty well. You would be a good CEO of a major market or something along those lines, I believe.
You perplex me, because I feel as though you are both insecure and open about your sexuality at the same time. You tend to make jokes at your own expense, though. You have a very laid back personality and a weird disposition that makes you stand out among the other people that I talk to - I don't think I've ever seen you get especially angry or sad. You clearly experience these emotions - primarily anger at yourself. And I've seen you be very passive aggressive to people but not enough to outright insult them.
I think you have low self-esteem and you generally think of yourself as needing to act sardonically and cruelly to get respect from others - which isn't true! I don't know how how you realize it yourself, but I also think you are so concerned about acting correct and proper in certain situations that you let opportunities get you by. It wouldn't surprise me in the slightest to learn that you suffer from social anxiety.
I think your primary problem is that you generally just loathe yourself - please don't, as you are worth more than that.
One of the primary things that you hate about yourself is that you care way too much. You get emotionally invested in people on this website, not so much the game. But you feel as though the internet (especially this website) is stupid to form special connections on so you shun yourself for doing so and try to distance yourself from others that you enjoy talking to.
Still, when you actually show your emotional side, it becomes clear that you are deeply invested into this website - having becoming ingrained into its history, you feel as though it would be folly as to not follow it to the end. Though you have considered leaving (and kinda have) many times, it is your habitual personality and your subconscious idea that if you keep coming back, eventually your time spent will be worth it that keeps you coming back.
You are fairly handsome and capable of winning over friends and deeper relationships in real life. I do not, then, know why you decide to spend a majority of your time online. I rationalize that it may be because you find it easier and though less intellectually or personally satisfying, more quickly rewarding than forming a real bond with someone is.
You have a quirky sense of humor and partially pride yourself on your originality - though, I do not feel as though any of your uniqueness is contrived. I think you naturally act in a slightly counter productive way that bewilders many people around you, and it makes you happy occasionally that you are that way.
But you know how to talk up a girl, or how to make small talk with some friends IRL - but it bores you or tires you out if you aren't doing something slightly unorthodox. You aren't the greatest in education, and you compensate by having an fascinating personality
You have a few emotional issues and generally shift between anger, sadness and contentment at a moments notice. There is a subtle difference in the way you conduct yourself online when you are angry or sad, by the way you speak and the kind of jokes you make. You've never really felt like you have any particular talents so again, you rely primarily on your personality to get you through.
Don't sell yourself short, though. In life, you'll do just fine.
Also, I'm not intending for any of this analysis to come off as cruel or degrading. I like just about all of you. If you feel offended or hurt by something I say about you, please PM me and I will be happy to delete my evaluation and or rectify the situation with you.
You are a fairly lonely person (but like many on epicmafia) also have an above average amount of intelligence or analytic ability. Unlike some though, you have often doubted your own ability and you struggle with insecurity and self loathing very rigorously.
You are fascinated by morbid things or dark humor but you would never actually engage in the things that you frequently joke about. In a way, you use the dark, sociopath sounding humor as kind of a coping mechanism to make yourself look better. If you aren't as spiteful or harmful as the things that you joke about, then you aren't as bad, by proxy.
You struggle socially, though you have worked in recent years on improving your own social life. You generally feel as though you're so radically different from the people that you take classes with that becoming close to any of them would be a near impossible task. Insecurity about looks/ability to talk casually can drive you crazy with annoyance.
I hope my analysis is actually wrong because I don't want you to be sad, I just get that impression from the way you conduct yourself.
I actually think I heard you talk about that (and your prom night) in a conversation with Empire in a game of VDLI like 2 years ago and I somehow still had it in my memory.
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I don't think you've ever talked about your weight with me??
You are inherently silly but want people to think you are more sophisticated than you actually are. You are very book smart; particularly skilled in analyzing and using logical deduction. However, you are not a competitive person when you do not feel as though you are in a position of strength. You have a habit of throwing in the towel a little bit too easily when faced with a challenge that may scare you, or when you have little backup. But, when you are good at something, you have a scary amount of quiet confidence in your own ability that makes you a threat in certain situations/games.
You pride yourself partially on not being like other typical tumblr girls even though you do very much resemble one. You have strong political opinions on several controversial subjects and partly consider yourself a feminist - not one of the psycho ones. You strive not to let other people see your own insecurities and you do so by insulting/berating others or attacking with passive aggression when you feel hurt but you do not want to show it. A part of you enjoys the drama involving you though, as it makes you feel important and it also gives you reassurance that your friends will back you up. In general, you seek out reassurance and attention from other people subtly - but you would not dare outright ask for it in a non-joking manner. You don't have the self confidence to do so.
In general, I think like most teenagers around your age, you feign arrogance partly as a facade to mask your own insecurity. I've yet to understand some fundamental aspects of your personality that would make this analysis more accurate, primarily because I feel like you aren't always sincere about your personal life and you desire not to speak about it.
funny how you picked up on the weight thing, i thought i only talked to lolwot about that. you were actually pretty on point, i've put on like 15 pounds since high school/college
You do a good job of keeping your personal life away from your epicmafia life. The things that I have seen slip from the cracks are very interesting, though.
I think you are extremely insecure about your own weight (though you don't consider yourself technically fat you still significantly weigh more than you did when you were a teenager, partly due to laziness. This frustrates you). In fact, highschool was partly where you thrived. It wasn't always good, but you got with a fair amount of girls. (We both know what happened on your prom night, right?)
You consider yourself extremely intelligent and you also carry a little bit of a smug attitude - but you also are frustrated by your own rudeness and in turn become insecure about it. I think your primary problem comes with low self esteem that causes you to act more aggressive or spiteful than you normally would.
You have a slightly below average social life, with a few friends you still hang out with (maybe some from college that you occasionally visit) but nobody that you're specifically close to.
You are capable of analyzing, thinking and feeling but you are still learning how to correctly maneuver social situations in your recent state.
