I will badly armchair psychologist analyze you and attempt to generalize your personality in a simple way. These are for fun, and not actually serious evaluations of your own personality though I will attempt to be truthful - I will also try to counteract any rudeness with a kind comment unless you want me to be as rude as possible.
the doc is in
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Hey it's been 20 days, Matt tell me something about me already dude
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Don't know if you people understand that i'm next.
You are an extremely intelligent and assertive person. You have a strong personality and a strong innate desire to be recognized. This can be your downfall. Since it seems that you have occasionally have no filter, you say things that you might not fully mean or genuinely think in order to get attention or rather make the situation/conversation lively.
You underestimate yourself and thrive partially on insecurity when in reality, if you act like yourself then a great amount of friends will start coming to you - you don't need to fake yourself out in order to get acceptance.
You're going to do just fine in life, but I hope you can overcome your own insecurities. I suppose they may be rooted in the fact that you've never been a super popular person, but the moments that have gotten you a lot of attention when you were a kid or otherwise were so sweet that you very much want to get the feeling back.
You were never very educationally inclined, and you have learned throughout the years to compensate for it with charisma and a love for physical things (such as sports, singing etc etc). You have a very abrasive personality, and it makes sense to me that you would be a stand-up comedian as you come off as aggressive and assertive, but in a playful and non-confrontational way. You have strong opinions and you like to be the leader of most 1 on 1 conversations.
You are slightly insecure about your own intelligence like most, and you also have severe doubts about where your future is headed but you have a pretty nice group of close friends that keep you grounded and ultimately happy.
You are a very good leader, and it shows with the way you conduct yourself on the forums/etc when creating things. Your apathy and insecurity prevents you from being a firm leader in mafia games, though. You are, in spite of your recent introversion - a people person. You like to meet, talk and explore the minds of others - and you derive part of your self worth from how other people think of you. You enjoy exploring the minds of other people and you also like to think about "deeper", more philosophical topics in spite of realizing that they may be beyond our own comprehension. You consider yourself an OK person most of the time at least mentally, though you are insecure about your looks and body image. You are fascinated by the cruelness of others even though it also disgusts you.
But the thing that compels me is that you're one of the people on this website that isn't completely jaded and bitter yet. You come off, even in your upset days, as rooted in a positive outlook and contentment. If I can be briefly sentimental, I find it slightly inspiring due to your recent situation and I can relate to some of the problems you face.
Still, this site genuinely makes people bitter and jaded towards life. Since you are one of the people who has not yet completely fallen victim to the spiral of negativity - if you begin to feel that the site is changing you, leave this website and never come back. I say this as a friend who enjoys talking to you.
On the surface, you come off as one of those people that is literally like pretty much every cookie cutter tumblr girl on this website. But there's something slightly different about you that piques my curiosity. I think it's the fact that you have an extremely kind heart and though you get frustrated, you don't seem to be rooted in bitterness, hatred or self pity like a majority of the site (including myself here).
Now, I believe that you suffer from a lot of insecurity partly due to the fact that you seem to doubt your own abilities, and I'd say it accounts for a lot of your actions. You're self aware of the fact that your social life is lacking, and that you're one of the people that you would have considered to be losers a few years ago - and though you are aware, you are still frustrated by the situation you're in. Though you have come to accept it, long, beautiful fantasies of being extremely sociable and back on your feet are commonplace for you. This is okay, because most of us have something we really, really want.
You were born with the innate desire to cross as many lines as you could - you were homeschooled as a kid. I believe that this homeschooling contributed in the time you had alone to yourself, and because of your innate desire to be a little bit of a troublemaker, your homeschooling contributed to this path.
You were generally a good kid growing up, but you also were interested in things that most kids your age were not interested in (ie: explosives, dangerous things, crimes) and this led you to be a bit of an outcast socially. I believe that through your life you have made many friends, but you have failed to form a deep connection with any of them in your real life.
As you grew up, you also became increasingly isolated. I believe that you pride yourself on how corrupt or desensitized you are, and I believe a majority of that desensitization happened in your early 20's as you "got" into the internet and figured out all of the crazy things you could do and find.
You are intelligent, analytic and you have a fundamental understanding of how to lead. However, you are also naturally introverted and you also feel as though your own mindset is far, far different from those that you know in real life. Though you desire an intimate relationship with another person, you also deeply fear letting another person that you care deeply about getting into all of the trash that lurks inside your subconscious - and it leads you to become insecure and freak out when you find a potential good friend or love interest in real life.
You're difficult to nail down. For me, the best way that I can compare the way that I see you is the way that I see a comedian on a Comedy Central television special. The comedian has a dramatized, overzealous but also likable and entertaining personality. The comedian swears, he runs around, he interacts with the audience and generally makes them laugh. You enjoy how frantic and charismatic the comedian is, but you have no clue if the persona you're seeing in front of the camera is actually representative of their internal thoughts, feelings or personality.
What I'm trying to say is that you have a personality that is so bombastic that I often doubt how sincere it is. I feel as though the way that you interact with people simply isn't what you're actually like. I do not know if you intentionally put up a veil on your own personality, but I often feel that way. I quite like talking to you but I am also curious what you actually are like, because as much fun as a good comedy show is, it doesn't leave me with a good example of the person behind it.
