So I've been thinking... For a long time. (Entil not braindead, wow, clearly fake news) I don't even know how to start this opening sentence, without resorting to my facade. Quite pathetic really, lets try this again.

Maybe it's because of only sleeping two hours for two days in a row, or cause I see myself turn into the ones I called out on their behaviour despite their popularity. Perhaps I'm just getting old, whatever the case it's just a final nail in the coffin nothing more.

Many years ago a friend recommended me this thing called epicmafia, a fun mindtricking game. And so as most people do I started in main playing with him and the rest we knew from LoL back when it was just 1 or 2 years old. I ended up drifting to sandbox mostly out of boredom when they weren't around, but the more I played the more I began to enjoy the complete nonsense that revolved around this many roles.

Long story short, I haven't found a year wasted on this side of em. Thank you for being there when I had nothing to do, for making me feel better when I didn't even deserve it, for all the great games, the laughs, the added value to my life even though others would say it's a mere browser game. To me it's something I'd even have more trouble on giving up on than a job I worked ten years for, one I stepped out of the door without feeling any sense of regret. Even now I am still questioning if I am even posting this at the end of it all, not wanting to let go of this place that has so many fond memories with them. Old users of the past, users of the present and I had hoped users to come. Perhaps I'll just be a coward and come back with my tails between my legs. I hope not, screw melodramatic nonsense.

I'm just tired of playing the part, pretending to be something I'm not and the last thing I want to happen is people remembering me for changing the lobby wall into full anal, or having to defend myself for the so maniest time against the common occurring problems while doing so. Even now I am noticing how I want to write about softboiled stuck up squares that should learn to be able to handle internet speech, but that's not even what this is about and yet another confirmation that it's time. If I wake up tomorrow and read this I'll probably be so pissed though, typing without my usual filter because of lack of sleep is the dumbest thing you can do.

Maybe if I was a greater man I could've put some backbone to my words, actually put energy and time to be part of the improvement, not part of the problem. Sadly I am not, a lazy sod that just criticizes everything that's wrong and do nothing productive to change it. Instead I harrass noavis who might've become great people part of this twistedly fked up (I meant enjoyable and truely amazing, it's easier this way though) community that has done much good for more people than we notice at first glance.

If you want one of my alts just ask (they are on my profile), if more people do though I'm inclined to choose. No hard feelings. I also put up my emotes if anyone want a last chance of grabbing one, don't mind the twitch ones though, they are trash.

P.S.

I ain't waiting for dishonest posts, positive or negative it doesn't matter. Just speak your mind. Your opinion mattered to me, so whatever you feel like saying is what you should say. Just don't come here with your fake smile, when you lack any credibility to wear it cause I am done with it. Period.

Sidenote: If you're uncertain about posting here, then you're right and shouldn't. Anyone who has a personal beef with me just send me a constructive disapproval through PM. I don't want you anywhere near this thread, I give you the common courtesy of settling your affairs with me if you desire so, that's it.

See you never after this thread (hopefully, I am a weak cuck afterall)

Hope you have a merry christmas, a happy new year and lots of family and friends around you to cherish. Find your path to fulfillment, only one life to live afterall. Make the best of it, don't let the world tell you what is right and wrong. That's for you to decide, not the rulers above who force you fake happiness that will only leave you empty and addicted at the end.

I'm sorry for not being strong enough to tell this directly, goodbye sadbox. You've been amazing.