Watching the video D3X posted where we found lailai, it reminded me of the alts that I used to bypass my suspension on Orienteering (for claiming that I hacked the site when it was really lailai). these depictions of people who weren't who they said they were, these really made me feel bad about what I have done in the past. But after a second of thinking about it, I realize that I don't think I did total wrong.

DreamGate was supposed to represent a female who had been born in a hostile environment, emigrated to the States from Spain at age 6, and was sexually abused during high school, and then fixed her stuff, got into college, and then declared she was a lesbian. She was born in Barcelona, Spain to a couple, where the mother was the father's sex slave. The mother had no money on her own, and both Maria ("DreamGate's" first name) and the mother had been abused. Once Maria was 6, someone randomly slipped the mother plane tickets to the United States, and so Maria and the mother were able to immigrate from Spain to New York, and then New Orleans, where they stayed in Lafayette, LA. She lived in a ghetto neighborhood, but in early high school, a senior boy approached her, and they hooked up. Maria started playing Volleyball in high school, and it kept her safe from the ghetto. But she was called to her boyfriend's house once, but she came in and saw her bf and three other boys, who instantly beat her and gang- her. They all got arrested after, but she was scarred for life. She realized that through all of her experiences, she didn't think she would ever have the gall to put her trust in a man again, and in college, she outed herself as lesbian. I have told people about this in stories all throughout the time the account worked, and it kinda got people's attention. It got a lot of feedback, and it even got people to open up about childhood complications, as well as sharing their own stories of abuse/sexual abuse.

Lionel was supposed to represent a breaking of stereotypes, as well as proof that deep down, we all have our sad stories and emotions. His story was that he was a Half-Mexican, Half-Welsh 2nd-gen American who started working out in High School. He had a girlfriend who had mutual love for him since elementary school, but her parents didn't like Lionel. Her family moved to a new area in his senior year, thus breaking them up. He got a job at a gym and started working out like crazy so he could get into the Naval Academy (He was "23" in this account, so he was close to the maximum application age). He also studied web design/development in his free time. Soon after he graduated, he got a job as a mechanic/web maintenance person at that particular gym he worked at. And one night, I posted an update in a few games with people like soda (I remember his reaction the most), where I said that I was driving home from work and I saw a car crash that happened to be nonfatal for one vehicle, but not the other car which had his ex in it (y'know the one from before). Yeah, so, I made an EM family to kind of see who else was misunderstood as a person. They gave me life stories and I gave them decent advice. I had helped somebody with workout tips by mixing my ROTC workouts with XC workouts. People shared their reactions of losing loved ones in the worst way possible (in fact, around the time before I got banned when I was caught multiaccounting, I found out my childhood best friend died in a self-caused action). People have shared experiences of where they had a dream, but waited just too long to follow it, and now they are living in a mutilated shell of a life.

Believe it or not, when I used those accounts and tried to tell the stories, it actually felt really weird to just make up a person who have had experiences way outside of my own. At first, I was trying to appear as someone other than DatGuiser to the mods, but then it just snowballed into telling the tales that haven't been spoken, which encouraged people to speak up about their experiences, even including the people who have perpetrated those terrible actions.

This thread's OP's purpose is to help understand the honest intention of the psychopathic train that I rode for not only my benefit, but for others as well. This forum is to share anything you thought about while reading this: experiences in my stories similar to ones you have lived through, sharing if you believed who I said I was or not, if you think you liked what I did or if I offended you, or whatever. Just thoughts in general.