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The Tatami AMA

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Have you ever wanted to know my opinion on you?

Have you ever wanted advice on solving your weasel problems?

Have you ever wanted to know how someone can be this infuriatingly bad at mafia?

Have you ever wanted to know why I am so infuriatingly stupid it makes you want to fling your keyboard at a wall?

Did you miss the reveal and want to know what the ratings were?

Do you want to ask me any question whatsoever?

Find out here the answer to all these, and more, here.

Do you not want to ask me any question, but just want to stop by and tell me you hate my guts and think I deserve to get hit by a car? That's okay too.

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pingu says

Hi Tatami (: Do you have an opinion on me?


Ahoy there pingu, sorry but I don't know enough about you to feel comfortable giving one.

pingu says

What's your 'type' of music?


It really varies but I'd say the two genres I listen to the most are rap and various types of rock. I elaborated a bit on my favorite rap albums earlier, other favorites include Currents by Tame Impala, Reflektor by Arcade Fire, Is This It by the Strokes, and Pinkerton by Weezer.

Other albums I've been listening to lately: Art Angles by Grimes, Reptilians by STRFKR, and Carrie & Lowell by Sufjan Stevens.

My 'type' is hard to identify but I'd say the main thing is just the sound can't be too overwhelming and heavy, ie. metal. Beyond that, I really value albums that put together good stories/cohesive themes and tend to value "softer" music, in the sense of both their sound and the emotional vulnerability shown by the singer (if any).

pingu says

And what do you enjoy to do in your spare time?


Honestly it varies a lot. Mafia is probably one of the most consistent hobbies I have. I'm a solid chess player and play pretty frequently when I have awkward slots of times in my day. I'm currently on my school's Dragonboat team just because I wanted to do an athletic extracurricular. It's neat but I'm not that passionate about it, I mainly do it for the pleasure of being on the water (Before joining, I'd only been to the beach three times in my life) and for the free trips. Other than that I generally just do whatever my friends are doing.

Honestly I'd say my academic interests are more what I do for fun, the vast majority of my free time I spend doing reading on IR theory/artificial intelligence. Those are probably my biggest passions.

Hibiki says

thanks man youre the best, can't wait til you come to the UK


Love you Concon~
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Sims says

why did you give me a high person rating after i said i hated you before I found out you were tatami


You can be a good person and hate me. It can be because you have an entirely wrong perception of me, or an entirely right perception of me. The two aren't mutually exclusive. Everything I have seen from you in the past 2 years indicates that you're very down to earth and at this point rarely malicious (Though I wouldn't be surprised if occasionally your temper got the better of you-but that happens to everyone, you know?). Your apology afterwards was very sincere as well, and I appreciated it a lot. I wasn't quite sure how to respond and only just realized I never did so I apologize.

It's a good person rating, not a "How nice are you to me?" rating.
over 8 years
thanks man youre the best, can't wait til you come to the UK
over 8 years
Hi Tatami (: Do you have an opinion on me? What's your 'type' of music? And what do you enjoy to do in your spare time?
over 8 years
why did you give me a high person rating after i said i hated you before I found out you were tatami
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Gira says

is joe flacco a elite qb


tim brady is the only elite qb in the league, so no
over 8 years

Fidelis says

Go away Gira.


i want to state for the record that i went away because i had other things to do, and not because i saw this post. sachy does not have power over me
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Yes. 
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goodbar
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Evol says

do you like me? please use as few words as possible, thank you


idky
over 8 years
do you like me? please use as few words as possible, thank you
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Tatami says


Slowbro says

favorite bad mafia player


You.


*twelve giant ascii facepalms*
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Slowbro says

favorite bad mafia player


You.

Uhhhh I don't really know. Probably Vash.
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favorite bad mafia player
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lol tatami lives his life for enjoyment
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I remembered Tatami was still secret, and especially I realized mafia was something I was good at and had lost thousands of games of before. This meant that I could try and the thought of failure wasn't so bad. So I set the goal to be the best player of all time, or at least the best that I could be. I had spent 4 years on the site as Empire-and not once had I gotten any better or put any real thought into improving my play. In fact, my win rate stayed constant from my first account to my last-57%.

In that sense, Tatami was a wild success. I learned to really enjoy the game. I probably enjoy it more than anyone else now. It helped me get over a lot of my anxiety and a place to channel competitiveness outside of school. I try incredibly hard and put all of my effort in, so much that I can only play 1-2 games a day if I put in 100%. Some people are like "That's dorky" but I enjoy it so I don't care. Results wise I'm 5x better as Tatami than I ever was on Empire, and I'm pleased at how far I've come. Removing my first 5k points as Tatami (where I purposely played poorly to hide who I was) the account has posted a 63% winrate since I started trying, and that's over several hundred games, all of them with the best players on the site. I don't know if I'm the best of all time or the best active, but I'm very happy with how far I've come. There's been times I'm on fire and times I haven't been, but overall I think I'm incredibly strong.

Also, part of the beauty of Tatami was that I had just changed so much as a person as to be unrecognizable. I could hide in plain sight and didn't have to change anything at all.
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Retti says

also, what led you to make Tatami and what brought you back to the site? dunno if you've answered that yet


Tatami was made in January 2015 just as another random alt that I could play on, but I was very busy and my focus was elsewhere for the first 5-6 months of it. In that time, I sparsely played and was just hiding who I was.

What really made Tatami happened over the summer. At some point in the summer I realized that I had spent my entire life afraid of failure. I had never taken a real risk, ever, not even once. I always hedged my bets by simply not trying if I thought it was possible I might not win. This was mainly true academically, but also in games. It was at that moment I realized what it really took to be a contender. It's the origin of this quote from earlier in the thread:

Tatami says

More niche but the thing I wish that I had been told is that it's okay, and even a great thing to fail. You don't have to succeed on your first, or second, or thousandth time to be great. Using basketball as an analogy, it's better to be the worst player on the court trying your best than it is to sit on the sidelines telling yourself you'd be the best. You learn more that way. Michael Jordan would have never been Michael Jordan had he not been okay with taking shots he could potentially miss. He missed thousands and thousands of times, and lost hundreds of games. Being the best, or being great, or learning anything at all, takes you being willing to fail.


The problem I ran into from there is that I was suddenly hit with a lot of anxiety when I tried to channel my newfound ambition and resolve in real life, specifically academically. It was the first time I ever experience real pressure in my entire life. It was horrible. I decided then to take up a hobby, or a game, on the side and channel my energy into that instead.
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also, what led you to make Tatami and what brought you back to the site? dunno if you've answered that yet
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This is also a case where it's a very good thing if I am wrong.
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Retti says

good thing you didnt pursue psychology as a major eh empire?


Agreed, I'd be pretty terrible at it I think.
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good thing you didnt pursue psychology as a major eh empire?
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Retti says

if anything, seeing the outlook you had on me compared to the one i have of myself right now is a bit polarizing, but i appreciate the perspective.


It's a combination of a lot of things. One is that my experiences with you are outdated, another is that those experiences only make up a slight percentage of your whole. I would be very surprised if it was accurate given the limited knowledge I have.

Your own reflections on yourself will always be more useful than something I cook up from scattered, loose ingredients could ever be.
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also i really just like editing my profile, that's like 70% of the reason i still log on lol
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Tatami says


Retti says

[opinion]


Probably inaccurate since I've barely talked to you in ages, especially the last 2-3 years. I think you're someone who's unhappy and can't figure out how to be happy. That's really about it. I don't get why you're on the site, you don't seem to enjoy it very much and the arguments you pick are pretty meaningless and petty over half the time. You've gotten more relaxed and less caring about what other people think about you but at the end of the day it doesn't really seem like you've gotten very much further along than that. You're not a bad person but I don't think you're the best either, though that's mainly because you need to find yourself first before being extremely concerned with others. You just seem perpetually lost in limbo.



if anything, seeing the outlook you had on me compared to the one i have of myself right now is a bit polarizing, but i appreciate the perspective.
over 8 years
absolutely disgusting