Thanks biii! I think that's mostly quite accurate, which surprises me considering that you didn't have that many interactions with me to analyze. Gl next time you leave me alive on lylo tho.
hahahahaha jill's gonna see i posted a ton in this thread and then realized i stopped right before her ranking get cranked jill
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hi jen i have a generally positive impression of you but you're too guarded around me for me to have much more to say. when you only interact w/ someone in games and that sample size of games is limited it's a little tricky to get real reads on them. you're probably cool though and i'll probably revisit this ranking later
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you're a 17 year old trapped in a 23 year old's body and the sooner you realize that that's just a thing that happens to some people the sooner you'll start being happier with your life. you don't fall at the place on the maturity curve that you think you should by now, and while i guess it kind of sucks for you it's one of those things that you can't just decide to overcome; play the hand you're dealt. i know i've told you this before, but you really just need to actually embrace who you are instead of trying to be the person that you think other people are telling you to be. you're fun and just about everyone finds you enjoyable at best and tolerable at worst. honestly this site is probably really bad for you but also a really great surrogate social life for someone who just moved halfway around the world and doesn't really know anyone. stop worrying so much about who your friends are and who really likes you. occam's razor, dude; the simplest solution to the question of "why are people talking to me?" is because they like talking to you
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actual response tho:
don't know you particularly well but you seem like a good kid who's a bit on the nerdy side and has no idea how to get what he wants. like, you strike me as the guy that everyone thinks should be captain of the chess club but is too unassuming and nonconfrontational to actually go for it. i think you really struggle to separate your personal feelings towards people from the game of mafia and it's your fatal flaw as a player; like, i have the utmost confidence that leaving you alive when i'm scum is nearly always a good idea because you're willing to let out of game factors influence your ingame actions and it's easily manipulatable. you seem like really, really hung up on the idea of not disappointing people you either like and/or respect, kind of like goodbar. you'll probably be fine though, you're just a kid and i've never really seen how you roll with punches so it's hard to say just how fragile you are. my preemptive advice to you would pretty much be to not end up falling into a pattern that stops you from growing and learning, because you strike me as the kind of person who's at real risk of taking your own mistakes too personally and stunting your personal growth
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I just realized I posted here twice damn
Also, I think more or less the same you said about wetzel can be said about me as I also prefer telling people what I think they want to hear instead of telling them the truth and acknowledge it's a bad trait that needs fixing
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ive only known you for a short time but you're absolutely one of the small handful of people on this site i really really enjoy talking to. i immediately developed this weird big brother-like desire to protect you and i can't really explain it. you're one of the most genuinely good people i know, although sometimes it can be really frustrating because i think you're more committed to being nice than being honest. sometimes i wish you'd just level with me instead of telling me what you think i want to hear, because i'm the kind of person who actually wants to hear the truth. i think you bite off more than you can chew, and i see it because i do the same thing and it's super super apparent to me when other people are doing the same. you want to make everyone else happy even when it's not possible. lastly, and this is a big one, i'm deathly afraid that you're a total doormat. you're the kind of person that it'd be really easy to walk all over if i were the kind of person that wanted to take advantage of it and i hope you develop a spine because i think you're gonna need it. you're one of like 5 people total that i've met through this website that i'd drop absolutely everything to help, though, and i don't want you to forget that. ever.
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honestly i'm not sure i've ever liked you, and it's entirely because the way you act gives off a real holier-than-thou vibe. i'm not sure it's even something you're consciously doing, it may just be the way you talk, but i feel like you're always talking down to people and doing in a matter-of-fact way that makes me feel like you just expect people to know that you command their respect. i feel like that attitude needs to be earned and you haven't earned it for me. now that that's out of the way, i think you've got a decent head on your shoulders and a good heart. i think i have a first impression of you that's rather difficult to overcome but that doesn't mean you're a negative person to be around or anything. you seem more contented in life than most people around here and that's absolutely a plus and for your sake i hope that it's not an act
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if someone took all the major parts of your personality and the events of your formative years and entered them into a computer program, and then ran that program 100 times, i think something like 90% of those computer generated rettis would have had a better/easier time in life than the actual you. you've had really, really bad luck, and i hope you realize how much of the crap you've had to deal with is due to nothing but sheer chance, because you can't stay unlucky forever. pick yourself up off the mat and keep going, you deserve better than the hand you've been dealt. you know i pick on you and i hope you also know i do it from a place of love, you're like the idiot little brother that i thankfully never actually had. i think you're the person on the site who i worry about stagnating the most; you're the most likely to get trapped in your current mindset and a big part of me feels like you've already been trapped in it for most of the time i've known you. just... don't get discouraged, i guess? it's really easy to, i know a thing or two about getting discouraged, but be better than that
skip everyone else, do mine, then i can not read these
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its really really hard not to censor bypass doing these
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most of the time when people act like you my bs detector goes off and i automatically assume they aren't genuine, but i think in your case i think it's real and you're actually just a really nice person. granted, that's not really my favorite kind of person, since i never feel like i have anything to talk about with people like that, but that isn't a bad thing. you're incredibly sheltered and it's kind of off-putting to people like me, because even though i don't doubt you can handle Big Girl Conversations i never find myself actually wanting to put you in them. i mean, i'm the kind of person that doesn't really filter themselves around other people; i am who i am and you either like me or you dont; yet for some reason i still feel the need to treat you with kid gloves. also i hope the cardinals lose 90 games next year
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be mean to me
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i never did figure out why you were so guarded about absolutely everything. maybe it's general mistrust of internet people, maybe it's something more, idk. i think this site was/is more important to you than all but a few people around here and i think in a lot of situations you used that dedication as a much-needed distraction to channel your feelings into something that mattered to you. to be fair, this game is a really good real-life distraction. these days you still seem passionate but a lot less frustrated, which makes sense. i've always actually liked you, even if you're stubborn and a little misguided, and it's been kind of a treat watching you grow up
tbh i think ive probably critiqued you 1 on 1 about as much as i reasonably can. i think you're a good dude with a really good heart who's a tad too idealistic, but you have actual convictions that mean something and that's worth something to me. i know i've told you before that you reminded me a lot of myself when i was 15-16, which is both a blessing and a curse, but you're not the type to follow my trajectory. unlike a lot of the sheltered people on this site i think you've faced enough adversity to come out on the other side as a well-adjusted person. it seems like you grew a bit more of a spine since i was last around a lot, which is cool and makes me happy for you. follow your dreams, kiddo
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my interactions with you have fallen pretty much everywhere across the spectrum, and i can't tell if that's because you're growing up or are just bipolar or something. you seem to have settled into a realistic self-image finally, which is cool, because there was a pretty long period of time in which you were totally insufferable to play with. you're also actually funny now, which i never remember you being. i hope u look back on a lot of ur time on this website and laugh, because it seems like you've gotten to a point in life at which you can do that.