also, I disagree that it's not a different playstyle. Last time I was way more passive and I think that was probably one of the reasons that lead to a loss. I feel like just because I said a message jokingly shouldn't be a concrete evidence or seeing me as evil but YOU DO YOU!!!!!
Yes. It's not necessarily a different play style, it's that you're acting completely different overall in your reaction to a bit of adversity. Your natural genuine human reaction to adversity shouldn't change in the face of adversity, since it should be an innate part of your being. A different reaction to adversity comes from being not genuine, hence being scum.