give your story and how/why you became/want to become sober (what motivated you?)
we encourage others
talk about why substances can not controll us
share coping skills
ect.
MY TWO CENTS:
I never really considered myself to be a drug addict, denial was a huge hurtle that I had to face. I still can't say I have even conquered denial yet. The mind is a absolutely crazy thing, truly our actions are puppets of our true selves. I feel like I buried my true self alive years ago. I still feel as if a last hurrah is in my future, and even though I know how that will end..its literally crazy I still think I am in control.
> Addiction is slavery
As of today, I'm 7 days off the beast they call heroin. This drug truly taught me what it was to be a slave to yourself, if that makes sense. The things I have put myself/other through to make myself "HAPPY" with heroin were shallow/selfish/unforgivable/ and disgusting. After 7 days, I can say most of the withdrawls are over..I have not slept in a whole week though..that really sucks. Opiates are not a joke.
I'm going to cut this short, maybe I'll expand on my thoughts later. Thanks folk..peace luv
>We can not let these substances control our lives.
i don't think you should try heroin even once, i have a pretty non-addictive personality in regards to bad habits
like, drinking, smoking w33d are the only things i ever do but i do it sociallty, and never alone
i never once got the urge to try anything else simply because i was probably that guy they talk about when the cops and those speakers come to ur schools trying to scare you and say "if we reach to one of you we've accomplished your goal"
yeah i was that one and sh*t like that, even when i'm around people that are doing it (coke, extacy for the most part) i never once felt like i needed to do it
i guess not being easily peer pressured is also important if ur gonna ever try it so that you only do it if you personally wanna do it and not cus u see other ppl doing it
now im just rambling but yeah dont do drugs i guess
Sonrio, in regards to trying drugs. That's pretty natural. Most people want to try drugs at some point. It's that idea of the unknown. There is a lot of fearmongering that goes around about drugs, some I imagine justified and some exaggerated. If you do want to try, make sure you are well educated first. Just remember, drugs have a 0% chance of screwing up your body if you don't do them. In my opinion, the temporary pleasure is not worth the consequences.
As for your friend, it seems like she actually has a problem. I think at some point you need to weigh how angry she'll be at you vs how much you really want to help her. If you really can't find the heart to confront her directly, then maybe you could anonymously tip an adult off. It sounds jacked up, but if she really has a problem, getting her help should come before everything.
"Looking into the mirror and hating yourself" is a ridiculous way to get started. It's often that very thing that gets people into doing drugs in the first place. They have no control over their lives and retreat into drugs to provide an escape from reality. The road to recovery begins with putting a value on yourself that drugs have nothing to do with. Unless you value yourself, the idea that drugs are harmful will never truly be a motivator to stop.
Once you're an addict, you never really stop being one. The physiological cravings can subside, but the psychological connection between the drug and instant gratification is always going to be a problem.
The most important thing is for you to find something that makes you happy outside of your addiction and stick to that. For my brother in law, it was his daughter. Just imagine that the things that motivate you and make you happy are mutually exclusive with getting high even once. Hopefully that will give you the strength to resist temptation.
Also you should distance yourself from people in your past that you might have used with. Even if they outwardly support you, they are the ones that have the greatest ability to pull you back in even unintentionally. All it takes is one really bad day for a relapse. There is no such thing as "one last time" or "just once". Those are rationalizations that can be used infinitely and will easily lead you back into usage. Surround yourself with people who make you grow and can push you to stay sober by example.
I've never been an addict myself, but my brother in law is a recovering meth addict. These are just observations I've learned from his struggle. If I'm wrong, then I hope someone with more experience can correct me. Best of luck to you.
I'm scared to touch anything because I was raised like it but I also want to try stuff at least once. But I'm afraid...
My best friend is high like every day and it kills me because she's been stressed so much and I don't have the heart to tell her to stop. Is that even bad? I don't want her to do something stupid...
I used to use quite a bit of DXM. So I even made a guide about it, as to encourage safe use: http://4x13.net/dxm
@juke haha I'm a type 1 diabetic as well, tried to kill myself with insulin and it blew
The closest thing I've had to an addiction was when I was using ketamine daily, sometimes multiple times a day. But I haven't touched it for years and now the hardest substance I do is weed, maybe once or twice a week. I consider it to be mostly harmless...
The hardest addiction for me to break was cigarettes. Rare ecig use and occasional tobacco pipe smoking keeps me from that vice. Cigarettes are a harder habit to break than speed or coke!
Hey man, you can message me too. I've been some terrible places on drugs, turned to dealing for long periods of time twice as well. I didn't do opiates, but they're about the only thing I didn't hammer in constantly. My friend try to kill himself with my insulin (I'm type 1 diabetic). One mate of mine almost killed another friend too. He went to prison. I still do some class As sometimes but not like I used to. I used to be in and out of hospital and saw someone die in intensive care. That's just the start as well. I aint gonna talk about it in detail here but you can hit me up.
message me if you want to talk about getting off h, i did all sorts of drugs when i was just a few years younger, lot of heroin and opiates, some coke, good amount of experience with meth and lots of other stimulants, not much real experience with heavy drinking, but lots with opiates. by the end of highschool most of my friends were wrestling a fair sized dope addiction, one friend overdosed not even a year after highschool. i guess i could consider myself lucky for being the only one who doesnt fight a black addiction but honestly it doesnt feel fair. probably did a lot more dope than most of my friends a lot earlier than most of my friends, and im easily less smart than a lot of my friends. i am grateful i got to be the one who didnt get addicted but given all the prior reasons i always wish it was one of my friends instead of me who got off without getting seriously hooked. quitting is hard work and staying off it is even harder. really no simple advice i can offer you that you wouldnt have already heard. best thing i can offer is just myself if you want to talk to someone who has done a lot of black and oxy and has had friends who have struggled and one who died trying to get off it. skype is madvb22
im not sure if its really the same thing, but i have something called pica disorder. its where I get cravings for things that are not food, such as metal or plastic (gum wrappers, pop taps on soda cans), and its a struggle to not do it, and being caught is really embrassing. also, if heroin is like ciggerres, then if you go to the sauna three (?) days in a row it sweats out the additicing thing and makes it easier to quit
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not a joke post:
I have an addiciton to epicmafia. I play em in class. out of class. on the bus. on the train. until 4 am . all nighters . skipped uni cause i was too busy chatting. i have an assingment due tomorrow which i havent touched cause ive been playing em and can't get myself to do work. I stay in my room all day and play em.
recovery is a struggle. you still have your craving and confusion. as time goes on, you feel like you need it less and less. you're on your way back to normalcy. that's how it was like for me and it takes time if you truly want to quit
Of course I would love to stop,..I would love to go back and never pick up a cig or a j or a drink. Life would certainly be much better for me, and I sure would bet i would be a whole lot happier. The problem for me lies the intense cravings, I obsessively think about heroin. Me looking into the mirror and hating the person I have become is not enough for me. I feel like I could go out and use again 'once last time', and thats totally absurd. I understand I will always feel this way.
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question for you - do you really want to stop? you'll know when you know. for me, the motivation was how i felt the morning I woke up. this wasn't even a "rock bottom" for me, that happened long ago. i never looked into a mirror before and not recognize the person looking back. that was all the motivation i needed
remember that we value you, even if it is hard to see that sometimes. the world itself values you, and that is why you exist. your existence has meaning in the semblance of the one that is its master, its provider - the Earth. never forget that we all love you unconditionally; it is just that many of us do it unconsciously and in varying degrees of emotion, as all humans go through the strife of living
quitting smoking was hard. i felt irritable all the time, everything annoyed me really easily. the only thing that truly made me stop was the fact that i told myself i wouldn't do it ever again and i meant it, otherwise i could've said it a million times(and i did) and it'd never matter. the time you've went without it is just a small piece of what will be forever, you control how long it is so just stay sober and it'll make you proud of yourself
don't have a problem with addiction myself, but i've seen it ruin not just lives and souls of people close to me but addiction truly does impact everyone around the addict. it's horrible.
