Thanks for the thoughtful words. You're right, my old main is MapReduce. I had to look up the word "loutish" before writing this response here and I must say that I agree with that assessment. I've toned down my aggressiveness on most fronts when it comes to EM because I've found that people don't really respond to it well (both here and in general).
While you're right in that what I said was also for the purpose of me seeking an avenue to forgive myself, I think I've become a lot more community oriented over my time here and that what I wrote in that thread had genuine intentions when it came to addressing and apologizing to the community. A seat in the admin position over two months tends to do that to you.
It's an interesting thought that you brought up at the end there, one that I've thought about for a long time. The question of whether or not we can effect change in our personalities without it being "forced" in some way has always intrigued me. I'm currently of the opinion that any change that comes is unnatural because natural would be to maintain the status quo and continue doing what you're doing. Which would make the point about being honest to myself moot because whatever I do would be taken as the definition of being honest to myself, if you catch my drift.
Yeah but there's a difference between general and personal.
If you think I'm at all concerned then you're mistaken.
I never asked you why you were here. I just said 'are you still here', which is more of a cue for you to stop posting than anything else. I understand you are not bragging, but the fact you bring up my age, the fact that I am on EM, and that you have a job, in the same breath, gives the impression that you are trying to make a point of some sort.
If you want, I can find the Skype logs of your boy Connor from when I was admin, and you'll see exactly why he is a douche bag. His douche baggery was further highlighted in this thread when talking to Patrick, so I made a quick post about it. You then took that as an opportunity to go full derp, even after he'd ignored it.
I never said anything about this. I don't know where you pulled this point.
I think it's very apparent I cared that you had a very wrong perception of Connor in my eyes-why else would I have typed that?
You're putting words in my mouth that aren't there. On the contrary, some of your statements "You're still here..." "triggered" etc. imply that you're the one who doesn't care but you spent your time typing up even more than I did (until now) anyway. You're a walking delusion.
If you want to talk about it anymore we can do it via PM, either now or after you respond to me here, but I figured it's time to give my promised response and give Retti back his thread.
I think I've made it pretty apparent that I took "prepubescent cuntlord" and calling me questioning your character judgment as me being "triggered" as a personal attack. If you don't take that as such then I apologize for us being on two different trains of thought but I think it's very clear why I took it personally. A very, very common theme in my posting is that it doesn't really matter what goes on on a mafia site. It was purely retaliatory. Apparently not. You indirectly asked why I was here, and I made an offhand comment answering. I'm not bragging by saying that I have a boring summer job, if anything that's a negative. I'm glad you took me working a deadend, boring job as something meant to assert superiority and preemptively got defensive about yours. I wasn't trying to make a point with it at all. You took an offhand answer to an indirect question and let your insecurity run away with it.
