Wow half of these replies should be nuked.

krystalk says

slow u cant tell him this isnt the way when u literally did the same thing pls

Really? Is this really the time? This is your concern? Do you realize what this thread is about or the weight of what Retti is talking about?

Retti, I'm extremely sorry to hear this, and that you feel like you have to make this plea here of all places, but I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. There are a lot of people who care about you here. None of us want to see it end this way. If you at all think you pose a threat to yourself, please get help irl ASAP.

I know I can't do anything for you or magically fix your problems ("Wave the magic mindset changing wand!") but if you just want to talk you have me on Skype. You don't talk to me that much so I understand if you'd rather reach out to other people but the option is there. But please don't stop reaching out to people.

Just try to remember the people that care about you or you care about them when you're in this situation. Even if it's a pet. Or do something to get your mind off it. Like the weeb I am, I'd watch anime if i was in that situation. If it gets worse, there is always a anon hotline you can call to talk with someone to help you through it.

its ok slow just try to keep ur hypocritical tendancies a bit more on the down low :-)

I don't ask for people to tell me what I should do and I don't accept the advice if it just boils down to 'seek help lol'

krystalk says

Slowbro says

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is not how you seek help. please see a therapist or admit yourself to urgent care for suicidal ideations

slow u cant tell him this isnt the way when u literally did the same thing pls

i never openly stated "i have a desire to kill myself and it's on you to convince me not to" and at most i was vague in feelings thread

admitting myself to a mental hospital was done by the persuasion of two counseling people and it was probably something that has benefited me more than any amount of conversation with someone on this site

Wouldn't say I'm constantly suicidal, just feeling it harder right now

Don't treat me that way

I don't like causing interpersonal scenes, the opinions of a couple of Internet strangers means less to me then having to admit myself to a hospital, because then you're just labeled as unwell

Slowbro says

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is not how you seek help. please see a therapist or admit yourself to urgent care for suicidal ideations

slow u cant tell him this isnt the way when u literally did the same thing pls

*edit* Sorry, just saw what the topic was about. My bad.

Its always better to call someone and talk out loud, then to type stuff

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is not how you seek help. please see a therapist or admit yourself to urgent care for suicidal ideations

I pull myself up a lot vash, but you ever just feel like not wanting to after a while?

so yeah no need to say this will all be ok.

be as down on yourself as you want. just remember to pull yourself back up.

some of us have long emotional cycles, too. me personally? i go like 3-4 months sometimes with a certain mood or style, then i oscillate and feel better or worse. could have to do with seasons; if you believe in astrology, then yea sure that.

either way, everything can and will affect you. it's up to you, however, to decide what you can effect.

Hey amime

hello retti, it is me

No I hate mafia

I'd stay and entertain you, but I gotta wake up in 6 hours.
Join a game and chat people up

Thanks

Probably just gonna stay here till I pass out, would ask a mod to delete this thread prior to it but right now I'm using this thread to copulate my thoughts and distract me

I don't ask for pity, just company

Well Krystal if you've ever seen courage the cowardly dog i too live out in the middle of nowhere

And I don't have to reasonable transportation, and on top of that, I've been looking

I promise, it's really not that easy

Yeah probably vash

why dont u get a job retti, if youre getting evicted??

Cal my whole life has been crap and I try to be optimistic really I do but I am one man and I want to feel selfish for once instead of trying to see a better outlook

Maybe there is one but it's not here and dealing with the now is much more prevalent in my head

it hurts real bad and u stop living forever, as far as you know.

depression and suicide can be valuable simulated emotions, but not the kind of thoughts you should actually pursue acting upon. this is true for many things in life; we might have fantasies or disturbing fetishes/killing desires, or as simple as wanting to con your best friends or steal your friend's girl/guy.

its nice to imagine the disturbing act and thereby entertain the sickening feeling you're desiring, but you have to know when to let go and go back to reality, lest you let yourself slip into madness.

it's perfectly human to desire madness, even crave pure chaos or irrationality, but what makes you a good person, someone who can love life, is knowing good from bad - not just for your own sake but for the sake of life itself.

admire it, respect it, enjoy it. love life, and it will love you back. hate life, and it will hate you back. toy with life, and it will toy with you.