you know what suicidal people with strong willpower do? they kill themselves.

either way, i've said my piece. i am genuinely concerned for you but i don't want to repeat myself or come off as overbearing. it's not my place to "diagnose" you. i just do not want something to happen to you that i could've helped in some way prevent.

I've done it before, just a bit harder this time

God loves you and is there! He listens! He helps!

I don't know if there's even a religious bone in your body but this is an amazing read and I promise you it is worth it:

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/10/like-a-broken-vessel?lang=eng

And a 7 minute video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2w49_1a9X0Q

If either of these two things peaked an interest or helped you, shoot me a message bud. I could speak a little more to you.

u can do anything if u set your mind to it imo

you don't will away depression dude

Slowbro says

vash baby i've always been fragile 100% of the time

if u say so lol

The long term for me is finding personal will and resolve instead of Medicine and someone trying to spoonfeed about the splendors of life

retti, do you go to the gym?

vash baby i've always been fragile 100% of the time

why dont u watch netflix or something also?

i'm very sorry that you view this that way, because your brain isn't going to suddenly fix itself. sure, depression can come and go in waves, but hitting the deck and praying for the best isn't going to be a viable long term solution.

Retti says

I pull myself up a lot vash, but you ever just feel like not wanting to after a while?

yea but the art of living is in finding a way to keep doing it, because the alternative sucks yo

also bearissoslow, you sure have gotten fragile it seems... maybe you feel vulnerable, but you're still you. no one is holding you back from being you.

This isn't just tell me nice things, moreso that I needed a distraction like I said before

Yeah I wanted to feel worth, but also I wanted different outlooks about how I should deal that isn't just hospital related

I don't want my life stifled and to be treated a mental just so my family has another thing to cut me down for, sorry

i'm totally willing to be a sap for attention bait if it means not risking the chance of this being serious

Feel like retti just wants to feel needed right now and some attention thats all

its okay i forgive u ty ty :-)

Yeah, I'm sure you care about Retti so much that you interjected in the thread solely to drag Slow. I'm not responding any further.

I'm sorry for derailing the thread even more.

telling him anything but "seek help" is offering a false remedy to his problems

HTH

Tatami says

Wow half of these replies should be nuked.

it's the internet where people have to keep up their image of not caring to look cool on a java mafia site!! can't be compassionate!!

krystalk says

its ok slow just try to keep ur hypocritical tendancies a bit more on the down low :-)

Jesus you people would rather sit here and drag other people while someone is talking suicide.

What the is wrong with you?

Thank god the censor removes all of the expletives.

tatami pls retti has said like 10 times he doesnt just want to hear "get help" i know u like slow but pls

"seek help lol" is the equivalent of "don't get hit" in fgc. yes, it sounds dumb and overly simplified, but it's actually the best advice you could give someone who needs to take a first step in bettering themselves

it's unfair and not right to actually put it upon other people on this forum to convince you of the value in life. this sounds harsh but it's reality. you can try a suicide hotline and that might help, they're (typically) good at counseling people in emergency mentalities and also have (presumably) good bases of reference.

what you should do is, like i said, actually go out of your way to seek help. it's a very difficult thing to do but you are conversing with someone who went through this process. if you have any sort of brain chemistry dysfunctions, it is extremely important you get those diagnosed and get proper treatment for them. no amount of internet therapy will help with that. i do not want to see you in this state and i think i speak for everyone when i say that.