I guess this is as good a place as any to clear this up fully. Apologies to Sammie for outing this stuff, but honestly I don't know what else to do since you put me in that position by claiming we were dating.. so here goes.
At one point Sammie wanted to date me. I really like her as a person but I was not attracted to her physically. I wanted to still be friends so I was really dodgy about the subject. I made it clear though numerous times that I didn't feel the same way.
I stopped talking to her shortly after I found out she had made public claims that we were dating even though I was clear to her that we were not. I decided it was better for both of us for this reason, among other private ones. I don't hate her or anything, it's just not a good combo.
When you were banned for cheating you gave a one-of-a-kind apology and, in my view, completely retained your dignity. I read your apology thread and knew you actually really felt bad about what you did. You accepted a rather harsh punishment for what was really a fairly tame incarnation of cheating (not rolesharing) without complaint. You showed no sign that you begrudged your accusers or the mods handling the case. It almost seemed like you were in denial about the cheating until it was pointed out, then hated what you did immediately. I was sure right away that you wouldn't cheat again. If it was just you and me in a vacuum I would not have even banned you, but of course policy and politics must be respected to an extent.
As for your mafia game, I feel like you try to be very logical, and often you succeed, but you also can't help that your thinking becomes tainted by emotion and stress. You're a very formal and polite player.. generally good form. I think when you're able to play full blown logic reads mode without the emotional investment you're top tier.
Ok so there is a lot of sensitive information tied into this one. I'll do my best to answer "in great depth", but much of it will be without giving justification, and may not seem to make sense, especially to people who aren't Lashka.
Over the months I've bounced back and forth probably 5 or so times between embracing you and most everything about the way you are, and thinking of you as a dangerous person who should be neutralized (how dramatic, I know). I should clarify that this isn't because my perception of how you are changes -- that remains more or less the same -- it's just my own indecisiveness over whether or not I can accept or even embrace your methods.
In every case I find you to be a very reasonable person. It's not hard to get to the root of any difference I have with you. You've also always been very respectful of me even when acting directly against me, and not in my best interest. I value these a lot more than I ever value someone being on my side.
You're charismatic and intelligent, and that's fun just to be in the vicinity of if nothing else. You're more than just a part of the scenery though. You're a challenging person in more than one way. There's a real darkness to you (not gonna give details) as well as a kindness, and I'm often not sure whether to abhor it or enjoy it.
I've only played a small handful of games with you (to my knowledge) so I'm going to base my analysis on the assumption that my small handful of games can be fully extrapolated. I know for a fact this assumption is going to be wrong, but otherwise I can't answer this question.
Your weapon of choice is negative emotion, and you use it effectively. You manipulate players through fear of being put down by you if they cause your loss when you're town. A lot of your effort during games goes into projecting confidence and intelligence, which you can convert to authority and win games through manipulation. I don't peg you as someone who is very focused on the scum-hunt itself, rather you go for control and play the odds.
