bless you gala for putting me in ur list. and you and potentate are really great for writing all of that.

my favorite hobby would have to be finding new and creative works to enjoy? it's honestly what i live for.

what is your musical guilty pleasure?

i got sniped but i already wrote SO MUCH so...
(favorite em users are hima, babacakes, thoughtfulolive, error, oprah, nauta, smishly, luis4rod, peach, hateyon, moocow, ashtonvann, avid, tricksterer, nillager, howi, reamix. can't pick one!)

in regards to your own measures against depression, be kinder to other people. uplift others, and then uplift yourself. it's SO hard, especially at the start. but make it a goal to even just be like "i'm the sh**." it's vague, yes but even just having that as a refrain to repeat to yourself is great because it's not something that requires a lot of scrutinizing to believe. i mean what's stopping you from being the sh**? what are the qualifications? there are none. f**k it, you're the sh**.

as well, i suggest weaning yourself away from environments/people who are a source of negativity for you. i don't just mean people who treat you badly, i mean people who have nothing good to say about anyone else, people who manipulate others, people who put others down whether or not it's to bring themselves up.

and lastly, set goals for yourself. there's this cool thing called 101 goals in 1001 days and you can set goals as simple as "watch 50 new movies" or as complex as "figure out what i want to do in life" and you've got a buttload of time to do it and it's honestly just a lot of fun to keep track of from time to time a notebook. i usually don't check mine for a month or two then go back and i'm like YEAH SON I DID A LOT OF THIS.

being goal-oriented in general helps a lot but doing fun projects focused towards goals serve as good ways to redirect energy, whether positive or negative, into something good and healthy.

depression is always awful but i doesn't have to be deadly, it doesn't have to win you over entirely.

and also if it helps, i care about pm everyone on here. if you ever feel like no one else cares about you, at least know that i do. very much.




what's your favorite hobby?

in regards to self harm an old bff of mine offered this to me (paraphrasing, this was 6 years ago): "i used to look at my scars and i didn't see any solution or release or relief. all i saw was the reason why i did it and it made everything worse. when i stopped, even the remaining faded scars couldn't bring me back to some awful memory."
the exact same thing happened to me. i just didn't want to see those memories anymore. everything didn't get automatically super better but there was one less thing holding me to the floor of the sea, one less thing keeping my head from being above water.

in regards to depression overall, i always recommend getting professional help/counseling where you can. there are surely places where people our age can get it for free (school/college/etc). don't be afraid of anti-depressants. they're not the only solution to dealing with it but it's important to remember that depression is the result of a CHEMICAL imbalance, and that's what anti-depressants work to fix.


(to be continued)

"A bad day doesn't mean a bad life"

It gets better. It gets so much better. Yes, there will still be some bad days, but there will also be good days that will make the bad days worth sticking through. There are people out there who care about you and one day you'll realize that. They could even be people that you've never met, just know through a computer screen, but I guarantee there is someone who cares. This is a little personal for em but I have been depressed for almost 7 years and have tried to kill myself numerous times because I was so deep into my depression that I couldn't see the hope in anything. I didn't think that there was a point to living and that continuing to exist was a failure. I would self harm because it was the only thing that would keep me sane. And it took me a long time to get over the fact I didn't die due to my near fatal overdose but now I am thankful that I was saved. I see now that I was given a second chance, and that I do have a future to look forward to. And it's not all fine and dandy now, but things are a lot better, and are continuing to get better. You have to hold on to hope when you can.

I think the most important thing to know is that you are not alone, which is part of the reason I wanted to share this. If ANYONE on this site is struggling with depression and mental illness, please know that you can always talk to me if you ever need to rant or need some advice. Because you are so not alone in this and I want you to be able to see that there are other suffering and others who have overcome their illness to go on to do great things. And you can do it too.

Favourite epic mafia user?

I love all the fresh flowers and fruits and people planning on starting gardens.

most motivating thing you have read or advice you can give for someone with depression

seattle

fav thing about spring ^_^

cannibal holocaust

favorite city in the world

Because she tries her best and tries to involve herself positively in the community. She's one of if not the least indifferent mod we have. Shame how under-appreciated she is.

What's your favorite documentary?

I don't even know what the Ibiza is.

Who is your favorite EM mod and why is it Hima?

Give a kiss

Where would you fly to in Ibiza, if you had unlimited money, but no car?

sniper af!!!
Cheese, ketchup, bacon, and lettuce... im disgusting

If there was one thing you could do with a guarantee you wouldn't die, what would it be?

on avery island oor hissing fauna

what would u put on the burger/veggie burger of ur dreams

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qt-fjdH6EI

what's your favorite album of all time?

Not as much as i used to be.

Favorite acoustic song?

sth like this
http://smg.photobucket.com/user/galexiegirl/media/hootenanny/clearhouse2.jpg.html


are you hyper?

pathologist because no one wants to put that in any setups so i never got to play it

dream house?

Deputy

Big. Hairy. Arsonist.

Best town role?

Eh not really. Death and loved ones dying are my biggest fears!

Best mafia role?

No.

Do you want to die?

Y-yes

Do you want to have a cuddle puddle?

I remember wanting to be an assassin and a scientist. hue


Do you like snuggles?

Cancer.

First thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?
(Mine was a lion. Don't judge)

Ehhhh, why not.

What's worse? Cancer or Nickelback?