ok shit 10 minutes of battery life left this is A RACE AGAINST TIME

I was planning on going to sleep but wanted to leave you a note before I did so!

umm I honestly don't know how to put shit into words anymore (over the past week or so I have completely lost the ability to be articulate)

but basically what I've been trying to say but haven't been able to yet is that you really are such a blessing and I say that as a really militant atheist

you are just... so great. you came at the perfect time in my life when I really needed someone amazing, and I have the best girlfriend I could EVER possibly ask for. you are above and beyond what I could have expected and imagined. I'm so glad all of the shit that happened to me did in fact happen, because out of the worst times of my life came the best -- with even better moments and memories to come.

I can't wait to hang out with you, I can't wait to get to know everything about you... hell I can't even wait to talk to you in a few hours. shit I dunno. I've never really felt this way about anyone, nor have I ever been so optimistic and just in such an awesome place in my life. I don't always say it (be thankful), but just know that every minute of the day you're on my mind and I am so appreciative of you.

I hope this wasn't too sappy but I seriously feel like you deserve to know every day how much I appreciate you and adore you and stuff. The last thing I'd ever want to do is take you for granted and I don't want you to think for a second that you're anything less than the most special part of my life

I really hope I have been the best possible boyfriend for you because you deserve it. ily so so so so much and I hope you're sleeping well. <3

-dork

p.s. sorry this was so long-winded and sappy and stuff but Fake Plastic Trees on repeat and attempting to type while in a hypnagogic state leads to one fuckin emotional Scott but shit I DO NOT EVEN CARE ILY!!!!