Good evening bbys. It's ur girl Rihanna. <3
I don't think it takes a rocket scientist to figure out I've been MIA for the past month. That hasn't been by accident. If anything, it's been completely by design.
I've been a member of this community for eight years now, shifting through various accounts the entire way. I've had a lot of fun on this website. Even during the times where I felt it was a cancerous bloodsucking black hole. And there have been many moments where I've felt that way, but I never felt so strongly as I have recently that it was time to leave. Even when I vanished, I always knew I'd return.
At the turn of the year, I saw so much toxicity in this community that extended beyond the boundaries of just simple trolling, and that drove me away. Normally I can handle the !trolls! for lack of a better word, but I felt very strongly about this and decided it was time to leave for good. Yet here I am writing this post.
Unfortunately, this post isn't meant to be a prologue for Rihanna's return to EM. In fact, it's actually meant to be an epilogue. I've received an overwhelming amount of support from you guys. Whether that was via DMs, comments on my wall, or for those of you who know me even better, emails, and personal messages. I want to thank those of you who reached out to me. From the bottom of my heart. I wasn't aware that by leaving, I would essentially be abandoning so many people that I call friends, and that felt the same way about me in turn. I really didn't. Every other time I disappeared, I never received an outpouring of support that I had this time around. After reading all of the messages and stewing on it, I felt I owed some of you an explanation, so here it is.
While it looks like things have calmed down in my absence at least in sandbox, (God pray for the main lobby y'all! alol) I don't think it's enough to keep me around. I'm going through some big changes in my professional and personal life, and I think that requires the utmost attention on my end. I've loved every second of getting to know some of you, but I think it's time for me to go, at least for an extended period of time. I may be back. I'm not sure. God knows I've been here so long, it's not like I have any self control to really stay away.
To wrap this up, I'm leaving EpicMafia. I've had a lot of fun, but I'm turning 30 in seven days, and I need to turn my attention to the many other things in my life. February 20th (my birthday!!!) will be my last day on this website. (I'm not self deleting btw) I don't want to leave some of you, so I have made a discord? or whatever it's called to keep in contact with those of you who would like. Just shoot me a private message and I'd be happy to share it with you. I've teased this for a while, but based on the support I received, I feel there are some of you I absolutely need to keep in touch with.
It's been fun y'all, but it's time for !ur girl! to get to stepping, and drop my new album. ;) I'm sure some of you won't read this, but for those of you that do, thank you for being such supporting and loving friends over the years. I love you from the bottom of my heart.
With all my love,
ur girl, rihanna <3
