and you're watching disney channel but not really this is just my thread that i'm making because it's finals week and i'm stressed and i don't know who i am anymore or what's going on and
idk
this is just spam but if u want u can ask me to play something on the piano for u and if i like the song enough i'll play it
just posting to announce that matcha is the best flavor in the world and that i still haven’t taken my antibiotics also my last final is on thursday whee i’m proud at myself for managing to overcome despite all the obstacles life through in my way
had to go to urgent care cause i’m having this weird sharp abdominal pain and they couldn’t figure out what it was so they literally sent me home without help
and now he's not even mad at me anymore, just a little irritated that he had to just throw away $90 because i'm literally human trash
moral of the story ladies get urself a man/woman/partner/friend who loves u & helps u solve ur problems instead of making u feel bad for ur fck ups in life
anyway by the time i settle into bed it's like 12:30 and being the self loathing pos i am i opt to try to sleep on the floor since my mindset is just like i suck and i'm scared and crying i don't want to take up space and share a bed with someone who is 1. very angry, 2. very tired, and 3. has to go to work at 7 am this morning. my bf knows me and my headazzery though so he anticipates his and after like 5 minutes of me crying on the floor in fetal position he forces me onto the bed and to my surprise even tries holding/cuddling me so i can sleep because he is probably an actual angel crafted from the sweet rainbow sem,en of a the most majestic unicorn heaven has to offer. anyway we end up going to bed and wake up at 6 the next morning to get my dumbasz to the earliest train and his sleepyhead to work and miraculously he made it to work on time
so OF COURSE being the dramatic, useless queen i am my first instinct is to sit down on a nearby bench and just cry instead of calling my boyfriend and being like hey this btchazz train left early. i tell him eventually and now he's PISSD like he has to turn around and come get me and we've got nowhere to go since his house is a no go so now he's gotta pay for a motel for us to stay at because someone is a major fk up and can't do anything right. so he's mad, i'm crying my eyes out, and there we are at 12 am in the morning checking into a motel 6 looking shady as fk because there is nothing good about a guy checking him and a crying girl into a hotel room. i am of course scared as fk because ladies idk if u feel me on this one but i have a pretty bad fear of men ingrained in me, especially ANGRY men so i'm like mistrustful and idk i'm weird ok we all know that. so i take a shower because i cried all my makeup off and i just wanted to be in hot hot hot water but of course the water was only lukewarm and they didn't even have complimentary soap for me to use which was honestly the worst since i hadn't washed my hair since thursday because i'm a dry shampoo queen
also story time so i spent the whole weekend with the loml and sunday comes around and of course i gotta go home so ya girl was taking the train home from anaheim to sd. i'm being a brat like always cuz i don't want to go home sunday night since i don't have class in the morning and i'd rather go home monday morning but still i've got a train to catch so after making my dramatic exit i head to the train platform. lo and behold this motherfcking train is a few minutes early like they were doing final call way before the time on my ticket showed and at this point i'm freaking out like i still gotta cross the pedestrian bridge to get to the other platform and i gotta get back down to the actual ground so i'm like crossing the bridge and the train is in the station, boarding passengers and i'm hauling azz and i sht you not as i'm on the elevator, on the ground, waiting for these SLOW AS FCK doors to open the train doors literally close and i cannot enter and the train leaves before the time on my ticket shows which is honestly bs i have no clue why they do that but ANYWAY this was the last train of the night so now i'm STRANDED IN ANAHEIM no car, no money
ok a while back b4 i tried to kms i was really depressed so is pent like hundreds of dollars on love live and now i'm having huge regrets cause i'm suddenly super back into fashion and I WANT OT BUY ALL OF THE CLOTHES ON THE PLANET
