Do you talk to the same people you talked to last year? The year before that? Perhaps even the year before that? Do you go from group to group on a regular basis and build strong friendships with people over a short amount of time, and then on to the next one?
Course they're probably tired of me since all I say is I'm gay and I want to die. But that's one of the perks of online friendships!
deletedover 8 years
I just think that, if I had friends, my high school experience would have been a lot better. I longed for just one connection with someone, but I didn't get it. I skipped prom and every single school get together because of it. No one asked me to do anything, but I also didn't have the balls to ask anyone since I wasn't close to one person.
I've lost some and gained some, but I still do talk to a lot of the same people from even 7 years ago when I first started using the internet. I always try to make friendships last and hate leaving others, even if it's on the internet where it's unpredictable.
Don't look into it too much bud. Think you were just one of those lone wolf characters in school, just as I was. Able to talk with just about anybody, and had pretty good friendships with people here and there, but were never involved in any kind of clique, so you were left out of certain aspects of friendships growing up.
It's not a bad thing, and there's definitely no reason for you to feel sad. I could make a big post about it, but if I were to give this my attention, I'd honestly rather just do that with you via Skype or something of that nature.
Regardless, you're very likeable, but by the sounds of things you just don't have a very high level of social commitment, so I suppose that might have occluded your perception of your situation?
Good post though.
deletedover 8 years
I talk to most of the same people as last year, but most of them only on EpicMafia, and maybe similar to the year before that given they didn't quit. The year before that was way different, I believe. (I'm literally just following your prompt so sorry about how silly this sounds.)
I don't think I've ever had a "group" on this website besides any of the mod teams I was on. I don't fit in a lot of places IRL or here. I've always been that person that is "friends with everyone but not really friends" where everyone liked to talk to me but I was never invited to go anywhere with them. I guess you could call me a "school friend" or "work friend."
Being that person used to really bother me, but it doesn't so much anymore just because I am used to it. I think throughout my childhood I had only one friend before I moved away in fifth grade. After that, I was the "school friend" until I graduated high school. I was extremely lonely and did some bad things on the Internet because of it. I thought no one wanted me, that I was weird, annoying, etc. The Internet was my best friend for my whole life.
After typing that last paragraph I actually became really sad. That's actually sad. I didn't have any real friends besides the Internet, which is why I think I'm always stuck when trying to not be around EpicMafia or anywhere else; it's like my crutch, or may safe spot. I at least know what's going to happen most of the time.
