When I was growing up I ignored it but you're always putting people and things around me which conform to how I develop. That's one of the things which gave it away. The earliest I can remember is middle school when you showed me some edgy websites, then chess, then mafia and a bunch of other stuff. They all came up at the exact time when I was looking for something new which fit that description. You can try to tell me that it's because I was looking for things like those or that they're coincidences I'm making a big deal about of but that isn't true. Everything gets put in my lap. I don't know why I'm telling you this. I think I'm just getting bored. Use it in your next runs.
I nailed it down and made the decision. If I'm wrong it isn't really going to matter and if I'm right I might find finally something worth knowing.
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you know it's actually fairly common to be thinking like you are, it ain't necessarily too schizophrenic. it's just looking for patterns in things, the same sort of thing that has us seeing faces in everything. and then confirmation bias kicks in with it, and you make a monster of it. it's just things ain't too solid bro, and just you kinda gotta nail it down. make a decision. a bunch of leaders throughout history have thought like you're thinking now. napoleon and cromwell and some american president i can't remember, all of them thought god was dictating his will to them through other people. they'd hear people say words they'd thought or some sht, and all of a sudden god was affirming some sht. but, you know, he probably wasn't. it's all the law of large numbers and being tuned into some certain thing over all the rest of everything. you ain't ever getting any girls being a nut dude.
I think you're all trying to avoid conflict with me because you know that if I see you as invested in what I say I'll be able to start getting straight answers.
How do you expect me to explain my scale's rotor skewering 180 degrees without being touched? How do you expect to explain that? Stop f.ucking with me and tell me what's happening.
