First off I admit I have said and done things in the past that are pretty terrible. I have posted on the forums and on the lobby wall. I have cheated, many many times, more than most people can even imagine. I have ban evaded, and done all sorts of horrible things. I was basically nothing but a personality-less troll that did things just to screw with people. I was young, bored, depressed, and dumb. I was immature and didn't realize the severity of the things I was doing. Looking back on the things I did back then today, I'm disgusted by my former self's actions. I can't even fathom doing those things today. I'm a different person and I am truly , genuinely sorry that I did those things. I honestly can't come up with a valid excuse for doing them, all I can promise is that today, in the here and now, that I do have remorse and I have changed my ways. I'm not a threat to anyone. All I want to do is help the site the best I can to maybe make up for the things I did.

People have accused me of being a pedophile. I'm going to deny that right here and now. I have never once been attracted to an underaged individual in my life. The idea of me being a pedophile is absurd. Four year old chat logs where I "admit" to it aren't worth anything, because EVERYONE in that chat was trolling. The whole chat was nothing but banned users. Everyone in there knew I was just screwing around when I said those things. I said them in order to troll crypto, who was in the chat. It was just something I said to shock / annoy him, not a confession of being an IRL pedophile. Furthermore, around that time I dated an 18 year old girl for six months and we were incredibly committed to each other. I wouldn't have felt the commitment and attraction to her that I would have felt if I actually suffered from pedophilia.

The last thing I want to address is the idea that i'm a "threat". What threat? Who am I a threat to? I have already shown you that I feel no desire whatsoever for children, so I pose no social threat to the community. As for moderating itself, I'm not going to suddenly start abusing my powers right after being modded, which is something I've wanted for years and years. I'm not going to throw away my chance by abusing powers, that's ridiculous.

By the way, in case any of you think I'm a threat... I've been running a keylogger on my PC which is keeping track of every single thing I type for the past month. I'm willing to share the logs with the mods in order to ensure I'm not abusing my powers, or being a threat to anyone.