Cantankerous. What a guy. Carbon-14, ISP'd all game and then exhumed every inch of vitriolic rambling he could find within himself to tarnish the game with. This was my first impression of you.
Me: Cantankerous is a ****. Jen: No he's not, he's lovely.
That Skype conversation went on for a good 5 minutes or so. I honestly didn't know what made me more annoyed at the time, your attitude, or the fact that I couldn't even vent to my friend on Skype about it without being corrected. For a long time, we had our differences, although I wouldn't necessarily be able to tell you if this was simply because of the time that I met you, or because of how things went on. I'd imagine it was completely to do with the scenario I've just described.
Times change though, people get over their differences. Despite what I would describe as your recent abuse of power, it's not something I'd ever intend on holding against you. We've known each other long enough, and my opinion of you is far better than it was in the preliminary stages of our interactions. You mean better than you actually show. I think you've had it pretty rough, and because of that your social tactile is hindered quite substantially. It took me a long time, but I finally started to understand that you're actually not a malicious person, and I really hope that others could see that more often. You're a bit too self centred at times, but I believe that is a defensive mechanism that you rely on.
I think that whilst drama exists on EpicMafia, you kinda just want it to go away, but whilst it's gone, you probably want it back for a bit of entertainment. You're easy going, yet you have your moments of being quite stand offish. I think once you've made your mind up about something, it's quite hard for you to change that, but at the same time it's not impossible. You trust your friends and you find them to be reliable. Though, I mention this simply because of the companionship you have with Slow. From an outside perspective, it seems as though Slow can do no wrong in your eyes, even when things are pretty heated on the forums. You have quite a mysterious personality, and I think on a website like this it can be a good thing. You know how to separate your lifestyles and that comes with maturity. To elaborate, you are generally pretty pragmatic in your methods. Overall good bloke and I have full trust in your ability as admin.
It's alarming actually, you're the user I've known the longest from Competitive Lobby, but I actually know very little about you. I've never been in your mod chats, I've never really heard anything about you relayed to me. You don't seem to come up in gossip, unless someone is generically flustered over something you might have said on the forums. Let's see where this goes...
Okay so basically, you were actually the first person I ever played a comp game with. I'd not long hit 1500 points and I wanted to see what the deal was. The table was you, myself, xJade, and god knows else. Because it was my first game, stepping into that environment meant that I'd immediately placed you above myself, much like you'll never be able to separate that 1 year age gap from the people in the grade above you in school. Luckily, this disintegrated after however long we'd spent talking in the forums. My general feelings towards you went from thinking you were a decent guy, to a bit of a douche, to a decent guy. I'd probably guess that I was stuck in douche zone for you until I'd sent you that message one day.
Bit of a rollercoaster with you, see. I'm gonna have to go out on a limb for this one, so I'm sorry if I'm way off. At first, my estimations of you were that you were too quick to judge, and definitely that you were too judgemental. Though, I think that this is almost to protect yourself somewhat. You care an awful lot for your friends and you really want what is best for them. You are very understanding of individual differences within people, and speaking out for people is something that you often do with enough conviction whilst bearing in mind that ignorance does not always translate to ill will.
You're a lot cleverer than you let on and you don't give much away. However, what you do give away allows the person that you are speaking to to feel as though you are bearing yourself. That does not mean to say that this is something you actively hope to achieve, it is more that you are comfortably insecure... whatever that might mean to you. I have misjudged you in the past, and it worries me that I may be doing so presently, through this post. However, i will conclude in saying that I think you are a real joy, and when you give someone your attention, you are able to uplift them.
Not sure where to begin... or end. Stanley, you are ultimately a good chap. A nice fellow. Someone threw an anecdote at me the other day and I'll relay it here as I believe it applies to you.
In a time where cultural awareness is heightened and often acted upon positively, we would probably still find that the minority of disrespectful or unfortunate events will most likely yield the largest response on a social media platform. In short, people are quicker to remember the bad than the good. Regrettably, in your case, the bad came before the good and you were in a pretty tough spot for quite some time. I think you're a really good bloke when you are not caught up amongst the negativity. I think you deal very well with the brunt of the abuse that comes your way, but at the same time it's kinda sad that it happens anyway. Most importantly though, you don't rise to it anymore, and I'm really proud of you for that dude.
Okay, you're probably not going to enjoy this, but you're probably the person on this website that I can relate to the most. Sorry about that. It's not that I see myself in you, although I would like to. #lewdjokes. It's more to do with the fact that we seem to share quite a similar perspective on things that would otherwise by overlooked by the general majority of EpicMafia users.
Now that that's out of the way... I think you're fantastic, and I adore you. Your demeanour exercises an innate display of your charismatic yet modest personality. You are often unassuming, and it's very common that things on this website do not weigh you down. You stand by your morals, and I absolutely admire you for that. An obvious example of this was when you stepped down as admin because of the way Lucid undermined you.
I think anyone who knows you well is incredibly fortunate to be able to say so. I enjoy how laid back you are about things, especially when I am worked up, because I can kinda tell that I've over indulged in something based on your reaction. I think you hold a strong level of self efficacy, and though recent events would probably contradict this sentiment, I entirely would deem it to be indicative of your character for the most part.
I think we both know that you care an awful lot about your friends, and in my eyes this is a very good trait, even on the internet. I know I'm on the hype of singing your praises, but I'll share just one final thought. I remember you saying you really didn't like me before you got to know me, but you answered the call in that Skype group chat regardless. I had a pretty good feeling about you like immediately, off the bat, simply by the warm tone and confidence in your voice. It was very approachable.
