also i would like to reiterate; contacting burger king is good for when you are hungry. if u are hungry u will feel unhgappy. i am here to prevent sadness. sorry for beign such a great guy it just comes naturally but i get thsat ur jeaLous
Religion was constructed by those in power to keep control of the masses. It's really disturbing to me that people live their life by a book written by man, but religion is another topic.
Beso, I relate so much. There were many days I just did not have the courage to actually kill myself and just wished a car would hit me or my heart would just stop. You're so strong and I'm glad you're here. I'm on medication too and I can't lie and say it does not help. All problems are temporary, and you're strong enough to have made it through that. So glad you're here xoxo
Also Heck this is not a topic to troll on. You have plenty of others to choose from.
Second off, I spent two years in a deep severe depression that nobody noticed, dropped 30 lbs from anorexia, and was so high on starvation the whole time that I thought about it a lot. I didn't ever attempt formally, but I felt that if I died accidentally, I wouldn't be upset.
So, I would walk into traffic. My school is right on a very busy road that connects the entire city. I would hoard the money my parents gave me for food and use it on zero calorie energy drinks at the CVS instead. Because the road was so busy, there were several different light sequences going, and even if the red hand was up, i would cross the street. I have been pulled back to the curb more times than I can count. We would laugh it off as me being airheaded and wait for the light. but I just wished they would let me die.
I overdosed on caffeine of all things, several times. On purpose. My dream, in the end, was to take several caffeine pills after a few days without sleeping, so that while I finally passed out on the grass, I would sleep soundly like my heart burst. That would have been nice in theory, I think. But oh well. This does have a happy ending.
When you throw up every meal, your throat tends to bleed, and your heart tends to have a hard time. One night, after a particularly hard day, my brain swirling with voices, I notice my heart is beating incredibly fast, and i taste blood in my mouth. This doesn't show any sign of stopping. This was very soon following a panic attack i thought was a stroke, which was scary enough in itself but I wasn't clear enough to notice what was happening. But that night, I thought, "I'm going to die." And I realized that I didn't want that to happen.
basically what i'm trying to say is, i know where you're coming from, and it does get better. I'm not there yet, but i'm much less suicidal now. i'm on meds and like, i had to do it all myself, but it's worth it. i'm not a success story or anything but i'm not dead
@Satan, It's possible find something that makes you so happy that you give everything else up for it ...
"44 The Kingdom of the heavens is like a treasure, hidden in the field, that a man found and hid; and because of his joy, he goes and sells everything he has and buys that field."
But there are also those looking for it ...
45 Again the Kingdom of the heavens is like a traveling merchant seeking fine pearls. 46 Upon finding one pearl of high value, he went away and promptly sold all the things he had and bought it." - Matthew 13:44-46
Either way, intense unyielding joy awaits. Although you give up what seems to be 'everything' to you, you realize how insignificant what you had really was compared to what you got. Like giving up 100 denarii(about 3 months pay) for 10,000 talents(About 200,000 YEARS Pay)(Matt 18:23-35).
I have two suicide attempts. March 2012 and December 2013. Both overdoses but the 2nd time I took double the amount and had my stomach pumped. I was in ICU for 3 days and unfortunately have some minor permanent damage on my organs. I reached out for help and finally went into full therapy in 2016 and I couldn't be happier. I lost 70 pounds and even though suicidal thoughts always linger, I look at life for what it is: precious. And nothing is permanent. Stay strong. You're not alone.
It takes a long time to realize how truly miserable you are, even longer to see it doesn't have to be that way. Only after you give up everything can you begin to find a way to be happy.
By the way, I just wanted to say to everyone that they shouldn't take this lightly. My sister has depression and has tried to kill herself several times.
When people have depression, they are sometimes unable to be happy, not even because their life is that bad, but because their brain chemistry that handles their emotions is broken.
Try to understand this when dealing with people with depression. The way they feel doesn't make sense, but you have to remember that it's because they are sick.
Speaking of which, @groundhogday: If someone has cancer and dies because of it, does that affect their salvation? You might say, no, because their death was out of their control, and not because they don't value life. If they didn't have cancer they would have kept living. But think about this: If someone kills themself because of their depression, is it really so different? If they didn't have depression, they wouldn't have killed themself, and they would have kept living.
Keep in mind that people with depression often do not think life itself is pointless, they usually just think THEIR OWN LIFE is pointless, which, if their life is full of only misery, and they are unable to feel happiness or joy, then really, it is pointless. If someone kills themself for this reason, really, it can be said that their sickness killed them, because if they didn't have it, they would have kept living.
So there is no basis for saying that if someone commits suicide that they are unable to receive salvation. And there is no scripture that says such a thing.
Furthermore, suicide is not a decision that is quickly made, but one that is thought about for a long time. So if you or someone you know suffers from depression, seek treatment immediately. My sister was treated, and now lives a life that is happy, though not without struggles.
i almost did it by eating a whole tube of toothpaste. i was supposed to go to poison control and all that bs, but all it did was almost choke me with minty fresh ;-;
The universe is a cruel, uncaring void. The key to being happy isn't a search for meaning. It's to just keep yourself busy with unimportant nonsense, and eventually, you'll be dead.
