You should record this. Voice record or full camera record. I can't believe you have the guts to actually go through with this. Respect. Stay safe though! If Monte dies, will I be site-banned?
Day 1: I have decided to eat the pretzel pizza and cinnamon bites. While the other options are also some of my favorites, the pretzel pizza and co. allow me the most ease in eating. I don't want my last meal to be stressful, like having to chew my steak 1000 times or having rice spill onto my table. More importantly, I have set the doll in place. It is ironic something so serene looking might turn into a thing of my nightmares. To be honest, though, I haven't ever had a nightmare of a demon. I'm not sure what it will look like or if I will even get to see what it looks like. Will its form adjust itself to the thing I fear most? What do I even fear most? I do not see how this thing can make me scared, the pain I feel from everyday life already suppresses my feeling of fear. Maybe this demon will actually be good for me. As I go off to bed for the last time, I think of all my accomplishments I made in this life. I couldn't think of anything. I remember one time I was really happy, over a girl of course. After weeks of trying to summon up the courage to ask her on a date and an hour of doing that same thing while washing the dishes, I said f!ck it and I did it and she said: "I'm your sister...". I was so lost in my thoughts I asked the wrong girl. But I did finally find the girl i liked and i asked her and she said yes. And I walked home in the rain, but it was ok, because I had a big smile powered by a body full of happiness. And I remembered that moment, and it gave me comfort. For a few seconds until I realized how awful the rest went. So as I lay my head on these two pillows for the final time, I may not be happy, but I have hope for the future. Hope that if this demon does not kill me, it can change things. And with that, I go to bed. If this is the last thing I write, remember me readers.
