Damn I blushed so hard at this that I accidentally deleted my first reply :') I'm so touched you took your time out to write all of this out in the open for me, however embarrassing it may have been for you! To make this more mushy, remember when you used hearts with me for the first time ever? I thought that was the cutest thing coming from you, given your tough guy attitude.
We've definitely went through a lot together for the past several months and we've never given up on each other. Just wanna let you know thanks for being an amazing and sweet friend <3 Love you!
making me a tad bit too emotional rian!!! I'm so touched you took your time to write all of this out in the open for me, however embarrassing it was for you. to make this more mushy, remember when you used hearts for the first time ever with me? that was like the cutest thing ever, given your tough guy attitude.
we've definitely went through a lot together for the past several months. thank you rian for being an amazing and dear friend <3 love you!
i also remember getting pretty vocal on the thread when you were struggling with it all, only to have you tell me in private that you didn't want my help because you didn't want me to get into trouble with others. you're the type of person who always thinks of and puts friends before yourself, and it's pretty damn admirable.
f*ck, i'm reading this all back and shaking my head cause i feel all in touch with my feelings and sh*t. i'm not that open about a lot of things, but i know that i can trust you with what i am willing to share. i guess i've gotten better at this and the walls have come down a little bit. i've tried it with others and look where it's gotten me...leaked conversations, rumours, and all that. i know it will never happen with you though.
and yo i'm kicking myself right now for not telling you how much i actually appreciate you until now. apologies if you've ever felt that i didn't care as much as you do about our friendship etc. it's just that i don't usually get deep about things. ya boi's gotta' work on that.
it's slightly frustrating to start things off with you just because it's going to get mushy and all that, but it's all good because lelmoo posted not too long after you to counteract how nice i'll appear here ayy lmao.
i don't think that i can put it into words how much you mean to me but imma try anyway. i met you in main not long after i joined the site last year and didn't give off the best first impression, but we got past that and you eventually made your way into the survivor lobby. it wasn't surprising to see you do so well in games, especially since you always go out your way to talk to others and make them feel comfortable around you. it's common practice for people to focus on making alliances and talk to well known players to ensure their safety in the game, but you would often try to talk with everyone and not just limit your interactions to with the veterans. i see it as someone who wanted to establish personal relationships and friendships to go beyond the game, and it's pretty rare given the fact that others focus solely on winning the game.
when you're close friends with people who are known to be unyieldingly honest and opinionated (think cody, ayd, and ya boi), it might give others the impression that you're very much the same as them but this is not the case. you and me, we're two very different people. you're someone that tries to avoid conflict, tries to see the good in everyone even when they've wronged you, and down to give second chances. you're basically a much better person than i am. i remember telling someone that i hoped you bombed the buy-back challenge in embb3, only because i knew how tough the game had been on you, felt you'd be better off not being there and that they didn't deserve you.
