So when I first met you, you were just another pretty girl. I mean we've all seen one before, so I didn't think too much of it back then. I used to always ask myself, "Am I victim of circumstances or a victim of self?" As human beings, we tend to blame the circumstances around us for the issues that we deem out of our control. I think its safe to say that it was really you that grew on me. But in actuality, it was I, that agreed to meet up every weekend. It was I, that agreed to go on these never-ending adventures. It was I, that created this fantasy that would continue to linger in my mind and it was I, that really let my guard down. You mentioned your 'boyfriend', and then my heart sank. So I went back to my old ways; woke up late; went out with friends; skipped lectures. You know, the usual. Nothing was the same. I knew I had it pretty bad. As a wise man once said, "you know you got it bad when you're out with someone but you keep on thinking 'bout somebody else." His name was Usher. There was this emotional void within me that could not be filled.I thought to myself: Could it be... that... its not that you need that someone in your life to talk to... It's that you need to be heard. Or that, its not that you miss being around that person. It's that you're afraid to be out in the world alone.
I got to travel to another country for 3 months just to be with her, and getting to spend every day with her was the best experience ever. I already miss it :(
Just spent another 2 amazing months with him. He had to go back home overseas today. I don't know wether to be miserable because I don't know when I will see him again or happy because I was lucky enough to get the time that I did ~
Went on a date Tuesday with this guy. He's super sweet and a little shy and has gorgeous blue eyes. He's an engineering student & plays the guitar and I'm really excited to get to know him better
