i saw a rabbit yesterday

I'm breaking eye contact to save, my conscience from being betrayed. logically, attracted..

a terrible consequence paid, and these actions were dreams we unmade, as the demons reacted..

But its digging, away at my skin, and my sullen words, were hidden behind my soft sarcastic grin

so, kudos for taking my patience away and then leaving me anti for loving today.

Its remarking how we can speak with no sound spread your ash as you pass by me cause i'm tumbling down..

Face to face sweat to sweat we're just steaming the room up. If we were in Egypt we'd shake every tomb up, winning this game of placement let the panting begin.

Well I have no regrets i don't wish i could change it I get some time to smile and talk to those strangers they've got the best candy in town if you know what I mean.

And don't ask me why I'm so damn sure of my health cause i'm not certain that i'm so sure myself that i'm not going crazy, your feeling that energy too?

But for now Ill sit here and writhe in my bed my chest pounding away at your soft heaven head, so falling asleep would be easy with you...

I've been waiting for you, to leave note telling me why you have left, so when all of my friends ask too.

I can tell them a lie, and say; "yes we're okay she just left for the weekend, and the tears in my eyes.. no they don't have a reason.." I paced back and forth, there's a rut in the hardwood, and I love how the floor starts to moan like my heart should to you...

To you, to you..

Say it isn't so, say it's for the best..
as panic starts to grow, I left as she undressed for the in the long black coat he's been eyeing you for centuries he's gonna slit your throat, you've been obviously blissful a life you called a lie..

As you ask me politely, "please let me die" I said no...

Cause i've been waiting for you, to leave a note telling me why you had left, so when all of my friends ask too
I can tell them a lie, and say; "yes we're okay she just left for the weekend, and the tears in my eyes.. no they don't have a reason.." as I paced back and forth, there's a rut in the hardwood, and I love how the floor starts to moan like my heart should to you...

To you, to you..

Darling where'd you go, his blood it trailed to the bed, his eyes wave to and fro.. I'm, waiting some peace in my head for a moment or maybe a lifetime, cause the flowers I had picked were a plea for a lifeline. I've drained my anger my passages of sorrow hoping you're here when I wake up tomorrow but no...

Cause i've been waiting for you, to leave a note telling me why you had left, so when all of my friends ask too I can tell
the truth and say "Yes there's a problem, and no I won't pretend, the tears in my eyes that they don't have a reason." I pace back and forth, there's a rut in the hardwood.. and I love how the floor starts to moan like my heart should to you...

To You....
To You...

How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb, without a soul
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

Wake me up, wake me up inside I can't wake up,
Wake me up inside, save me,
Call my name and save me from the dark, wake me up
Bid my blood to run, I can't wake up
Before I come undone, save me
Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real, bring me to life

Wake me up, wake me up inside I can't wake up,
Wake me up inside, save me,
Call my name and save me from the dark, wake me up
Bid my blood to run, I can't wake up
Before I come undone, save me
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life, I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside, bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead

All this time, I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
I've got to open my eyes to everything

Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul

Don't let me die here
There must be something wrong, bring me to life

Wake me up, wake me up inside I can't wake up,
Wake me up inside, save me,
Call my name and save me from the dark, wake me up
Bid my blood to run, I can't wake up
Before I come undone, save me
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life, I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
Bring me to life

A rap:

Jet fuel can't melt steal beams
In my darkest dreams I dream the dankest memes.
And I spit vile sh*t cuz I'm straight villain
Venom in my veins to free my ni**a lilin

I'm so ill I'll kill host killers and key them
Kick me if you think I'm better than you at EM
But if you're having problems I feel bad for you son
I got benis problems but urine trouble ain't one

I got a doctor for that
Mac and machiavelli
Give me tupac and biggie
Bandana and Smalls' belly

Broadcast it and call me Mr.fantas' d*ck
Gay for him but not for JM's clique
The suicide doors?
Click them for first place
Suicide squad turned suicide race

Stop it. Bebop it, rock steady and release.
Ninja turtle's pizza: peperony and chease
And bravo to the noavi lobby hobby
it probably ain't right with that boy Bobby

Sob story won't sell to the mob
when reported that the cop is insane
wine in front of me and fear the mafia's bane

listen to hamilton the musical

"My belly is fat,
my brain has delay.
You guessed it right,
i'm from NA"

And in the moments before right and wrong
Is effusive guilt- a battery acid
That once powered a lifeline

And in the moments after right and wrong
Is effusive guilt- a churning, burning splash
Of soul corrosion

You make me happy
But why am I still
Jealous angry bitter callous
You give me all of your intimacy
I feel guilty

Make me a player I have many rants to provide on the clique.

I have no recollection of writing these last two poems (i'm assuming it was some of those "middle of the night" kinds)
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at dusk we weep

it hurts like the sand on a late, hot,
monday afternoon
not enough people have
walked along the beach to help
cool it down
and you are miles from
where you’re supposed to be
the waves are either trying
to hold you or crush you
and the people have all
gone home
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miscommunication

you labeled me shallow
because i wanted love
because i craved deep in my bones
i sold my soul for the price of
a hopeful forever
and i scrubbed my hands until
i bled, just so you could see that
i was human too
i was messed up too
i loved you too...
too much, too openly. too fiercely
stuffing my heart in your
hands and begging you to
crush it between your palms
so you could be the last one to
ever touch me

I'll start with this poem I just wrote:

Checkmate


There is black bile bubbling at the mouth of men
The people are bleeding-will it not end
Strength in numbers, might in heart
Cheats and fools tear friends apart

I yearn to find the emblem of peace
To fight and scrap and charge and seize!
Alas, I am buried underneath the bodies
Bodies piled over bodies piled over bodies

Bodies piled higher than air
Here I was told it was fair
To be at the bottom rung
With songs unsung
O how long it took
For this pawn to see
He’s no King
No Knight
No Rook.