None, really. I've had a few relationships that I would consider almost reaching that status, but didn't. Either because of them ending up being totally wrong for me and crazy, or because I just wasn't as into them as they were into me. It's hard when you really like someone but you don't feel that "spark" with them, especially if you're gay because the dating pool is so much smaller.
They've all been good learning experiences though. Like, LESSON #1: Don't have sex with a closeted guy. I ended up getting emotionally attached, and inevitably he ended up trying to be straighter than he'd ever been before to prove something. He dumped me for a girl and proposed to her within a week of knowing her. LESSON #2: Don't accept gifts from someone you don't have that "spark" for. It's just leading them on, and every time you see that cute little stuffed Ewok you'll feel guilty that it takes you a few minutes to remember the guy's name. And so on...
I've yet to meet someone who feels the same way about me that I do about them. No mutual loving relationship. I'm not actively looking for it right now, I have a lot of stuff going on to deal with. When I'm ready though, I'll get back out there and let it find me.
Normal is overrated, and no I wouldn't choose to be not gay. I might have when I was younger, because of everything I had to go through, but that would be a mistake. Instead I would choose to make myself more confident as a kid, and not take cruel things people said to heart.
I have a few. Talking to my hero, Jonas Berggren of Ace Of Base, on the phone for the first time. Seeing The Sounds at the Rock 'N Roll Hotel, and having the lead singer Maja hold my face in her hand and sing into my eyes. Seeing Gwen Stefani live, front row. Seeing The Noisettes live and getting my favorite song dedicated to me and having the whole crowd cheer for me getting that dedication. Going to the premiere of my first movie. Seeing Nightmare on Elm Street 4 with the lead actress in the movie theater, and getting to meet her and get her autograph. Seeing Scissor Sisters live and having Jake Shears sing right in my face during my fave song. Having Katie from Ting Tings stop during the intro of That's Not My Name to point out she remembered me from chatting on MySpace.
As for something I wasn't involved in, I'd say Lady Gaga screaming in front of the White House a year later. It was powerful. Also, the Stonewall Riot's anniversary is on my birthday, which is neat.
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Genuinely kind guys, who aren't just nice to me but to other people too. Physically, I have two types I gravitate towards. 1) Dominic Monaghan, Shawn Ashmore, Jacksepticeye, Barry from Game Grumps. Guys that are sweet and funny and a little scruffy, and a button nose and ears that stick out are a plus. 2) Dylan Reece, David Boreanaz, Marky Mark, Josh Brolin in The Goonies, Ulf Ekberg circa 1995, Trenton Ducati. Tall guys with caveman-like features, a subtle masculinity, big pecs, visible abs but bot skinny person abs, muscular and defined but not hulked out or steroidy and veiny. Manscaping is a plus. No hairy butts, balls, shoulders, necks, or backs. If there's chest hair I prefer it trimmed or shaved.
