i have emetophobia i.e a fear of vomiting and also a generalized fear of food. every minute of every single day i think about the fact that i could be sick at any moment and suffer from an average of about 2 full blown panic attacks a day becase of it. i hae an eating disorder as a result and more than anything i fear being sick in front of other people so restaaurants make me panic. i know it's stupid but i can't help it and i can't afford tratment right now. i hsven't eaten a meal in 10 years and because i can't get tratment i doubt i will ever be able to have children or live a normal life until i can so it's ruined mylife. too deep? good. i hope u feel bad 4 asking beause i h8 u!!!!!
anything that doesn't involve me having to go to a restaurant because they make me feel too ancxious. i guess maybe ging and haing a picnic in the day with a lot of alcohol and then going t o a gig at night. that would be awesome. take notes jasper
