yeah i have generalized anxiety disorder but i stopped taking my meds because they were too expensive and their side effects made me more ill than healthy (so i just started smoking pot). so i just have to deal with those sudden bursts of anxiety every 3, 4 days a week and everytime i go outside the house :P
I also have an addictive personality, which probably explains why I have over 4,000 ranked mafia games played. And why I have somewhat of a drug problem.
But in terms of drug addiction..that is a complex disease with multiple variables factoring into it. I can admit I have some sort of drug problem.
I suffer from social, and regular anxiety. Not too horrible, and i have always had anxiety. Surely drug abuse has exploited this tho.
As far as mental disorders, I think that is about it for me. Its pretty hard for me to manage my own life to be perfectly honest. But I manage and I am happy. I can safely say 90% of my mental problems stem from heavy drug abuse during teenage years. Weed isn't too bad (althought it is addicting, whoever says otherwise doesnt know anything) but definatly negatively affected my life and mental health smoking everyday for 6 years or so.
I would say the majority of my mental problems stem from DXM and PCP use. Not to mention the period of my life when I smoked a gram of fake weed a day (that stuff is terrible).
I only mention my pattern of drug use because simply it is relevant to the topic, and really I do urge everyone to think about what they put into their bodies because in the long run a substance is a crutch that will always break. Then you will be on ur A**.
P.S. All of my 'diagnoses' are self diagnoses. I have not discussed my problems with a doctor. Basically this is a compilation of self-reflection of my psychological self.
I suffer from mild HPPD, I see tracers just about everyday, and on top of that my field of vision has a constant static overlay. Some days the symptoms are worse than others. I will feel intoxicated (experience mild hallucinations such as: noises, tracers, or paranoid thoughts) even tho I am completely sober.
Also I struggle with some sort of disorganized thought disorder. It is hard for me to completely work through a train of thought. It is almost like the inner voice inside my head, that I remember having when i was younger, is dead. I am pretty smart, and can learn new skills and information and can retain that knowledge, but something about my thought process is off.
Both of these are symptoms of very mild schizophrenia, although I wouldn't call myself schizophrenic.
Depression, although I hate that word, I do feel like I do suffer from this to some degree. I love myself, and I love life! But depression is very sneaky, you dont really notice its there, at least in my case. The way I see my depression is when I look at a list of symptoms of depression, I am like holy cow I must be depressed..but I don't feel depressed.
Literally my first thought when I wake up EVERYDAY is 'Im going to kill myself'..thats pretty messed up. But I am not depressed as when I actually wake up I love life.
I am also extremely detached from myself. I havn't been able to correctly find a diagnosis for this one yet. But basically I don't feel like myself. Almost as if I don't know myself and I dont feel like I'm in my body. Almost like I am another person? Idk its hard to explain.
I've was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder in 2012, but I've had it since 2008, as well as minor anxiety. Oh, and I recently found out I have a minor case of OCD! What fun!
Well yeah I did it for myself. Do you know how annoying it is having to carry change around? I normally just bin it but I was in a hurry and forgot to. When I remember I had it a threw it at the homeless. Now that I think about it I don't think he was even homeless just some hippie riding a bike.
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thanks
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That was beautiful.
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I also think birthday parties are fun. Whether it’s your own birthday or somebody else’s, I think its exciting to get together with friends and have a party with lots of cake and presents. I remember when I was a kid I had a birthday party with a magician who pulled a present out of a hat for me, and you know what it was? It was a Tonka Big Scoop Front Shovel Steel Tractor - just what I wanted!
Furthermore, I'd rather be a chicken than a jailbird, which is why I say no to drugs and you should to. Drugs are bad for you and highly illegal.
Finally, whether the big hat of life has a tractor in it for you or just a big lump of stinky mistake mess, you should remember that it's all part of God's plan and not to get so upset over it that you go and jump off the Golden Gate Bridge like my dad, because then you'll go to hell instead of heaven, which is a wonderful paradise up in the clouds where Taylor Hicks sings all day beside a mountain of Nacho Cheese Chalupas.
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Some people are sad because they don't think they can do things they want to do, but I bet they haven't really tried, because anything is possible if you really try. For example, I wanted to meet my favorite American Idol Taylor Hicks and I did at the county fair last month because I tried to go there and I did. If I hadn't gone to the fair then I never would have met him because he wasn't coming to my house. I also want to be a tractor driver someday and I will because anything is possible if you really try, and I'm going to try real hard.
Some people say they tried really hard to do something they wanted to do and it still didn't come true, but that's probably because they didn't put their mind to it, which is an important part to really trying. I don't think trying without putting your mind to it is really trying, so that doesn't count.
Another thing that you should always do is to think positively, because if you think negatively then bad things will happen but if you think positively then good things will happen. For example, one night when I was really angry because I couldn't go to Taco Bell my pet hamster died, and since I learned the power of positive thinking I've been to Taco Bell a bunch more times because they opened a new one closer to my house and I have a new pet lizard that's not dead yet.
I don't get what you're trying to say. Anxiety in one situation can be a symptom of something else... but generalized anxiety is just that
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anxiety is often a symptom of a larger over-arching mental illness. generalized anxiety is often a case of "everything in the world gives me anxiety", not just specific isolated instances.
hth
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i used to have really bad anxiety and panic attacks when i was younger and i also had them in 2014 - early 2015 as well. fortunately counseling/psychological help is provided by the government of new zealand free of charge for anyone who needs it (thank goodness for social welfare) so i was able to use that, and while it doesn't help everyone, it worked very well for me and i'm a lot better now.
i think internet usage is sort of like a tumor that grows and grows in the form of a pitiful attention span until it blocks oxygen to your brain and you begin typing not like english isn't your native language but like you don't actually speak any language and you're trying to learn except instead of getting better it slowly deteriorates along with your ability to think critically or contribute to society
