i remember when i posted a link to an onion site when i was on Index's account. this was after Index had come back and deleted the account. prior to this incident when i blew up like the overly emotional train-wreck i've always been, i had been doing a great job as Index's replacement. whether he thought i'd do good or not is irrelevant.
anyways... i posted a link to an onion site. it doesn't really matter what was on the site anymore, but i'll just put it out there once and for all there wasn't any in that link. unless you wanted to go seek it out. i basically linked the front page of 4chan, and for it i got accused of posting CP. and that dumb decision i made at 6 o clock after a completely restless night has haunted me for ages.
in fact, a lot of the dumb , unnecessary, weird, obsessive stuff i've done on this site in general makes me feel really embarrassed that i actually ever did it in the first place, and now when i think of the things i did i feel nothing but guilt and shame.
anyways. i posted a link to a dumb site that people didn't understand. the whole point was the shock value, at the time, not to get people to think i had actually linked CP. but they jumped to that conclusion because .onion means CP right? BUT ANYWAYS all i wanted to say once and for all...
i'm sorry for being such a miserable awful person and i hope i can put that all behind me.. all that terrible past. i admit i'm an awful person, and i request to be given a second chance. i've changed. i truly have. i'm not hiding myself anymore. i'm not pretending to be someone i'm not. i am me now and what you see with me now is the real deal. none of you ever really knew me before because i was hiding such an important part of my life from everyone.
that's all i wanted to say.. i don't even know why i said it but i guess i might as well post it now.
