cant wait to see all the memes that get made out of that one.

if i ever kill myself, regardless of the reason, ill make sure i die slowly. ill make sure to give myself enough time to record myself administering the fatal wound, and then to take that video

and message it

to every

single

one of you.

:)

oh i have an idea. you guys in the circlejerk will love this one.

it baffles me how some people can be so cruel to people knowing it could kill them

fun fact: the one time this website made me have a legitimate mental breakdown, it was you who did it. why not brag about that one to your friends? im sure theyll be so proud of you. :)

sometimes i remember ive been Like This my entire life and there are people who know what it feels like to not be constantly tormented by delusions and meet mockery around every corner

oh, and speaking of mockery, thanks for the help cub! i really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to make yet another "this is aimed at verumbark but theres no way to prove it and really only my friends will know because verum is just so darn stupid" thread!

you know what would really help, though?

wait for it

not mocking me all the goddamn time would be an AMAZING start, and yes, that includes on discord, too

youre all willing to come together and help someone on the verge of suicide who you didnt know felt that way until it could have been too late, which is amazing, but then there are people like me who are completely open with their mental illness so that they can receive support before its too late for them and well

its just like you said. epicmafia is a cruel place full of awful, hypocritical people who cant see the damage they do until its irreversible. i knew that though tbh i just wanted a place to tell everyone what was wrong with me so that MAYBE theyd understand me better but uhhhh nope

doot doot feeling the self doubt

also i lowkey wish people here would leave me alone bc it Doesnt Exactly Make Things Better

i wish i was a shapeshifter

i like being known for my ability to take on other identities. it really suits me.

when im not totally detached i feel miserable so id rather keep my feet off the ground

it sounds edgy and "special snowflake uwu" but i really do feel? inhuman? most of the time? its not just that i dont fit in anywhere ever; other contributing factors include my delusions, my constant state of living within my own mind, and just the fact that its comforting to set myself aside from humanity

i like face-obscuring garments, but especially masks, because putting on such garments helps me look the way i feel and have felt for a majority of my life: separate from this world, unreal, inhuman

OH YEAH that reminds me. does anyone know why i like masks so much?

ive gotten pretty good at it actually and the worst part is i dont even feel bad like. not even a tiny bit. i mean that alone doesnt suck too much but its smth i feel i should be concerned about???? despite not actually feeling concerned???????

ok i promised disturbing content and so far this has been 1000 times more mild than the stuff ive said in the first thread so uhhhhh

im a sadist? and i enjoy writing graphic torture scenes? thats a thing

bzz bzz im a restless verumbark

honestly i cant hold off that long my mind is buzzin and i cant settle down

expect Suffer Posts as soon as the sun sets my dudes