Steph Thread219
Good Morning. I made this thread because I was sick but now I am recovering and taking Tylenol like a madwoman. But I'll keep this personal thread forever to complain about all things instead.
So ask me about anything or listen to me whine, your choice.






kind of a brutal thing to write about but i found out just after voting today that a person who died in a fire in my hometown was the mom of one of my old friends when i was really little
her and my mom used to be really close and me and my sister were close with all of her kids back in the day and idk that's such a scary sad way to go
i've been lucky enough not to have anyone i'm close with meet an untimely death in my life but anytime someone i know dies it reminds me of how finite everything is and it terrifies me at the same time and now im in a sad funk about it all
her and my mom used to be really close and me and my sister were close with all of her kids back in the day and idk that's such a scary sad way to go
i've been lucky enough not to have anyone i'm close with meet an untimely death in my life but anytime someone i know dies it reminds me of how finite everything is and it terrifies me at the same time and now im in a sad funk about it all



I made the decision recently to start over on writing one of the books I was working on that I had lost all my work for back in February. I just started and I find I'm having a hard time writing it and I hope it's just because I have to do all this work again so it seems harder to me.
Sometimes I think I have really regressed as a writer and that I can't write as well as I used to because I'm not in school anymore or because I don't have this big giant influence in my life going awry that made me a writer in the first place.
Sometimes I think I have really regressed as a writer and that I can't write as well as I used to because I'm not in school anymore or because I don't have this big giant influence in my life going awry that made me a writer in the first place.









Sometimes getting things done is very difficult. I completed one out of many things to do today and I'm trying not to beat myself up about it. Some days are hard for me to the point where doing this one thing made me dizzy, nauseous, and gave me a headache. If I'm able to feel more energized later I will try to do one more thing but if not I need to remind myself that it's okay and that looming dread I feel for not having finished is unfounded. Nothing bad will happen.

I finally got Halsey's poetry book. I've always really admired the way she writes and I'm hoping by looking at some of her actual poetry it'll inspire me to write a bit more.
Without inspiration in my personal life I really struggle to write. I guess that is something a lot of writers can relate to but idk coming up with things without a prompt or even writing from a perspective or experience that is not my own is very difficult for me.
Gonna try to write a few poems today and see how it goes! :-)
Without inspiration in my personal life I really struggle to write. I guess that is something a lot of writers can relate to but idk coming up with things without a prompt or even writing from a perspective or experience that is not my own is very difficult for me.
Gonna try to write a few poems today and see how it goes! :-)

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Do you have anxiety about doctors as well?