Epicmafia

bisexual life

almost 5 years

I'm a bi male, 18. Coming to terms with my sexuality was hard. I had dated only girls until my sophomore year of high school. This jewish guy and I connected and became close and opened up about our trauma and had a typical guy friendship. One time when we were high I got kind of touchy with him, I don't know why and he didn't stop me.

My hand went into his pants and he was nervous but we started making out. It was weird for both of us in hindsight but we talked it through and eventually dated. I told everyone I was gay when really he was the only guy I had ever felt attraction to.

He moves away, we break up and low and behold I hook up with a lot of guys but don't feel anything. A girl likes me and I gave her a chance and when we made out she was shocked at how hard I was because she thought I was gay.

I went back to girls and people said 'he's in the closet' or 'he dated a man for attention' or 'he's in denial'.

I met a guy in tenth grade at my school and fell in love with him. He had never kissed anyone guy or girl, and I managed to get with him after slowly falling in love with him. I broke up with my girlfriend and went back to liking a guy.

We broke up, I hook up with 2 more girls, hook up with a random guy and kinda like it, and now i am conflicted.

I have probably found about 3 or 4 guys in my life attractive. Most of my hookups were to see if i was gay. Meanwhile I've liked so many girls.

Especially since i don't look or act gay, it's hard for me to feel like I belong to any community. A lot of my guy friends disowned me after I came out, except for one who asked me for head after I told him I had a boyfriend. I complied and he still kinda texts me to suck him off sometimes and I oblige because he's my friend and I guess I kinda like sucking .

TLDR; being bi and male and not a stereotype is hard

yare

almost 5 years

So true, thecolonel. It doesn't make you less of a soldier. I'm not saying you have a hard time keeping yourself busy, but you sure need a couple times a week in the field to go to work. I never asked you to stay at home, or read, or write, or even play with your child, but it makes you happier when you do. You spend most of your time on your computer, and you do other things in between. You don't just sit at home, and spend your days running around on the battlefield. And I thought that was your career. I wanted you in the service! The only thing I want from you is to stay in shape. If that makes your head feel weird, you should talk to your wife about making you come home. They're the only two people you can rely on for your safety. You can talk to your son and sister about not getting married and not raising kids as soon as possible. They're the ones who will teach you to play outside or go to a doctor's appointment, not you. I'm not saying you should always have someone watching over you, but you'd be surprised what they are willing to give.

thecolonel

almost 5 years

You'll live a much more fulfilling life if you aren't looking for a pat on the head. All it does is cycle neuroses. Just enjoy your life. Go out and have fun.

thecolonel

almost 5 years

Not the sexuality part

thecolonel

almost 5 years

This is disgusting

superspooky

almost 5 years

I think you should just think it more over and decide which path you take. Wether you go for boys or girls just talk with people very close to you who you can trust. We live in 2019 so it's not a big issue, there are a lot of people that are in the same boat as you and try to figure things out. Just relax and think about it. If you really aren't sure then just let time pass and find a person you feel very happy with. A lot of ppl joke around it but it's an important topic that can change the rest of your life. Do what you want to do and don't let anyone stop you.

yare

almost 5 years

After coming out, it was hard for me to deal with my own sexuality when it comes to the Church. Many Mormons and others, even when they're proud to be Mormon, can't let go of the idea of living in the "I was born gay" world. When I came out, I found myself at the center of a huge discussion about my sexuality. It had taken some convincing that my family knew anything about who I was or what I really was. As time went by my father got concerned my boyfriend was gay. He had asked me to marry him and I didn't want anyone else to be aware. At 20 I started asking around asking gay people at school about my sexuality. Then one year my older brother went to see a doctor. At this moment I started coming out to my friends. At some point I started getting to know people I met online as a result of coming out. This was at a time where I wasn't getting any gay friends and the majority of them didn't have any gay friends. As one of my friends and I got to know each other I thought about starting a relationship or two. We knew it would be easier if we took things a step further by getting married. We decided to do that as soon as possible. I remember telling my dad that we were getting married and what not. He looked at me and smiled and said, "It's ok, I've seen what's ahead". So he helped us prepare the wedding cakes, arrange for my mum and me to get dressed in our wedding outfits, and even brought me my own wedding dress. He also told me about the special events and events that would occur after we married. Our wedding took place on Thursday 23 March 2016, five days after my mum and I received the results of our previous surrogacy attempt after eight years of struggle (our original plan was to have two children - four boys and two girls), and after four surgeries, my partner went through with what he had been so worried about. To say that it was a long night was an understatement.